- Leviticus 24:1-25:46
- Mark 10:13-31
- Psalm 44:9-26
- Proverbs 10:20-21
If I were you, I’d turn away from my blog post now. I’m completely unqualified to be writing to the general public about any of today’s scriptures. I feel that way alot, but this particular day, these particular readings, I’m at a loss. I honestly and fervently prayed this morning and asked God, “So what am I supposed to say to these people? Are you sure it’s me You want? I don’t even know what to talk about….what am I supposed to be saying to these people?
Lord, all these scriptures talk about trust!! Who am I to write to someone in a country that I’ve never been to or dire circumstances that I can’t even fathom, about these scriptures pointing to TRUST?” What right do I have to talk to someone with a shattered heart about TRUST, when I take for granted going to bed last night underneath the nice cozy comforter, next to my loving husband after spending a love filled weekend with him, my grandson and my daughter. What is it I’m supposed to say to the one who got a bad diagnosis or that recovery just doesn’t seem to come? Ya’ll, I got nothin’.
But God said…..talk to them about ME. I AM the Way, the Truth and the Light.
Now….why in the world would the disciples do that?!?! That makes no sense to me….in America….in 2021…but back then, children just honestly didn’t count. They were a burden and a liability until they could work the fields, then they were a commodity. But not to King Jesus.
Kind of like our small problems. You know the ones we are scared to talk about for fear of people judging us? The ones that seem so much smaller than the one that the girl in the cubicle next door has. The problems that may even be self inflicted….or the bad habits that we just can’t overcome. To the binge eater, closet smoker, mom who rages, dad who has one too many after work…yes, these kinds of “small problem”. To the boy or girl who is being approached inappropriately by someone in authority….yes, that kind of “small problem”. To the hard worker who got passed up for promotion…..AGAIN….yes, THAT kind of “small problem”.
I remember reading this verse YEARS ago, and it somewhat resonated with me, but didn’t really really wrap my mind around it. Then one day, my 3 year old Ashley and I had to go somewhere….I can’t remember where, I’m just sure it was a regular errand kind of day. I fed her breakfast, got her dressed, took her hand and said, “lets go”. I loaded her up in the car seat, got her safely buckled in, got in the car and started it up. But before I pulled the car out of the garage God made me aware of what this scripture was all about.
I looked in the rear view mirror at my sweet, trusting baby girl.
I just sat for a moment and listened to her sing a little song while she prepared for us to go.
It occured to me that she never asked where we were going. What we would do when we got there. Who all was going. She never double checked the seat belt, or questioned whether I put gas in the car. She didn’t ask to see my driver’s license or doubt that I was qualified to drive. She just ate my food, put on the clothes, took my hand, got in the car, looked out the window and sang her song and waited.
She trusted me. She TRUSTED that I knew what I was doing, and had a plan. She had been in this circumstance before, and it turned out well, and with love. So, she had no doubt that I would provide for her fulfillment and safety as I had done in the past.
A rich man had just asked Jesus about how to inherit eternal life….he wanted to be a follower of Jesus too. Jesus told him that he had to not only follow the 10 Commandments, but to sell everything and give it to the poor. He had to give away everyTHING that made him rich. His house. His cars. His servants. His money. His cell phone. Everything. WHAT?!?! My cell phone?? Wait. Everything, Jesus?
Some of us have to choose to give up what we think is important and some of us lose it without any control of our own. Some have to walk away from family that won’t support our decision to follow Christ. Some of us lose loved ones who pass away before us, and all we have left is Christ. Some have to give up addictions and don’t know who or what we will be afterwards. Some of us end up having everything taken away because we have grown dependent on something other than God.
I lost friendships and relationships when I turned my life over to God because I wasn’t as fun at parties any more. I walked away from substances that clouded my brain function and hindered my health. Giving up cigarettes was one of the hardest things I had to do because it becomes a part of the personality, on top of being a coping mechanism. I remember wondering what I would do/be like after dinner or having a beer, or hanging out with so-n-so.
I chose to change my lifestyle because my body is God’s temple.
HERE’S where I’m comfortable….in the asking…..in the concern. I’m the one asking “What will….? What if…..? What then…..?” God says to Trust. Y’all I’m so unqualified for this. So I’m not telling you what I would do….I’m telling you what GOD SAYS TO DO. Trust.
That seventh year must have been scary right? The year of not planting or harvesting? Just depending on what is already at hand? Trusting day by day that provision will come. Just taking the Hand of God and getting in the car.
Maybe not as scary as the sixth year leading up to it though…preparing for the non-harvest years? These are the years when its important to eat right and exercise for health of the aging years. These are the years to save for retirement. These are the years of paying off debt and having the emergency funds in place. These are the years to love on our babies because we never know what will happen in the future. These are the years to dig the well or feed the livestock in preparation for the year of drought.
But what a celebration the 8th and 9th year would be!! It’s in the 8th and 9th year that looking back and KNOWING that only by the grace of God did everything turn out all right. This is the time to lean in to in the future years knowing that God provided before and God will provide again.
Sometimes bad things happen to good people. Sometimes kids get abused. Sometimes husbands have heart attacks. Sometimes wives get cancer. Sometimes the bank calls the note. Sometimes the drought never ends. Sometimes a spouse finds another person they think they’d be happier with. Sometimes the economy tanks and we lose our job. Yep. Sometimes life just doesn’t make sense, and I’m not going to even try to pretend to know what some of my readers may be going through.
But I do KNOW that God is faithful and his promises are true. He will come to our aide. I promise this time of trial will end. Life will look different, but God will be with is in and through and on the other side.
I pray for trust. I know that you, Lord have seen us through some really devastating times and I trust that you will provide for us the next time. In the meantime, I ask that you prepare us and provide for us. Forgive me that I take Your provision for granted. I pray for the person reading this right now that they would find hope and trust in You no matter what life situation they find themselves in. I pray that You speak clearly and guide them closer to You through their circumstances.
Do you find yourself in a year of preparation, waiting or celebrating today?
What can I pray for you today?
How have you been called or forced to trust God in the past?