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I Will Trust

  • Leviticus 24:1-25:46
  • Mark 10:13-31
  • Psalm 44:9-26
  • Proverbs 10:20-21

Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God.

Mark 10:27

If I were you, I’d turn away from my blog post now. I’m completely unqualified to be writing to the general public about any of today’s scriptures. I feel that way alot, but this particular day, these particular readings, I’m at a loss. I honestly and fervently prayed this morning and asked God, “So what am I supposed to say to these people? Are you sure it’s me You want? I don’t even know what to talk about….what am I supposed to be saying to these people?

Lord, all these scriptures talk about trust!! Who am I to write to someone in a country that I’ve never been to or dire circumstances that I can’t even fathom, about these scriptures pointing to TRUST?” What right do I have to talk to someone with a shattered heart about TRUST, when I take for granted going to bed last night underneath the nice cozy comforter, next to my loving husband after spending a love filled weekend with him, my grandson and my daughter. What is it I’m supposed to say to the one who got a bad diagnosis or that recovery just doesn’t seem to come? Ya’ll, I got nothin’.

But God said…..talk to them about ME. I AM the Way, the Truth and the Light.

People were bringing little children to Jesus for him to place his hands on them, but the disciples rebuked them.

Mark 10:13

Now….why in the world would the disciples do that?!?! That makes no sense to me….in America….in 2021…but back then, children just honestly didn’t count. They were a burden and a liability until they could work the fields, then they were a commodity. But not to King Jesus.

Kind of like our small problems. You know the ones we are scared to talk about for fear of people judging us? The ones that seem so much smaller than the one that the girl in the cubicle next door has. The problems that may even be self inflicted….or the bad habits that we just can’t overcome. To the binge eater, closet smoker, mom who rages, dad who has one too many after work…yes, these kinds of “small problem”. To the boy or girl who is being approached inappropriately by someone in authority….yes, that kind of “small problem”. To the hard worker who got passed up for promotion…..AGAIN….yes, THAT kind of “small problem”.

When Jesus saw this, he was indignant. He said to them, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. Truly I tell you, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it.

Mark 10:14-15

I remember reading this verse YEARS ago, and it somewhat resonated with me, but didn’t really really wrap my mind around it. Then one day, my 3 year old Ashley and I had to go somewhere….I can’t remember where, I’m just sure it was a regular errand kind of day. I fed her breakfast, got her dressed, took her hand and said, “lets go”. I loaded her up in the car seat, got her safely buckled in, got in the car and started it up. But before I pulled the car out of the garage God made me aware of what this scripture was all about.

I looked in the rear view mirror at my sweet, trusting baby girl.

I just sat for a moment and listened to her sing a little song while she prepared for us to go.

It occured to me that she never asked where we were going. What we would do when we got there. Who all was going. She never double checked the seat belt, or questioned whether I put gas in the car. She didn’t ask to see my driver’s license or doubt that I was qualified to drive. She just ate my food, put on the clothes, took my hand, got in the car, looked out the window and sang her song and waited.

She trusted me. She TRUSTED that I knew what I was doing, and had a plan. She had been in this circumstance before, and it turned out well, and with love. So, she had no doubt that I would provide for her fulfillment and safety as I had done in the past.

The disciples were amazed at his words. But Jesus said again, “Children, how hard it is to enter the kingdom of God! It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of God.

Mark 10:24-25

A rich man had just asked Jesus about how to inherit eternal life….he wanted to be a follower of Jesus too. Jesus told him that he had to not only follow the 10 Commandments, but to sell everything and give it to the poor. He had to give away everyTHING that made him rich. His house. His cars. His servants. His money. His cell phone. Everything. WHAT?!?! My cell phone?? Wait. Everything, Jesus?

At this the man’s face fell. He went away sad, because he had great wealth.

Mark 10:22

Some of us have to choose to give up what we think is important and some of us lose it without any control of our own. Some have to walk away from family that won’t support our decision to follow Christ. Some of us lose loved ones who pass away before us, and all we have left is Christ. Some have to give up addictions and don’t know who or what we will be afterwards. Some of us end up having everything taken away because we have grown dependent on something other than God.

I lost friendships and relationships when I turned my life over to God because I wasn’t as fun at parties any more. I walked away from substances that clouded my brain function and hindered my health. Giving up cigarettes was one of the hardest things I had to do because it becomes a part of the personality, on top of being a coping mechanism. I remember wondering what I would do/be like after dinner or having a beer, or hanging out with so-n-so.

I chose to change my lifestyle because my body is God’s temple.

Follow my decrees and be careful to obey my laws, and you will live safely in the land. Then the land will yield its fruit, and you will eat your fill and live there in safety. You may ask, “What will we eat in the seventh year if we do not plant or harvest our crops? I will send you such a blessing in the sixth year that the land will yield enough for three years. While you plant during the eighth year, you will eat from the old crop and will continue to eat from it until the harvest of the ninth year comes in.

leviticus 25:18-22

HERE’S where I’m comfortable….in the asking…..in the concern. I’m the one asking “What will….? What if…..? What then…..?” God says to Trust. Y’all I’m so unqualified for this. So I’m not telling you what I would do….I’m telling you what GOD SAYS TO DO. Trust.

That seventh year must have been scary right? The year of not planting or harvesting? Just depending on what is already at hand? Trusting day by day that provision will come. Just taking the Hand of God and getting in the car.

Maybe not as scary as the sixth year leading up to it though…preparing for the non-harvest years? These are the years when its important to eat right and exercise for health of the aging years. These are the years to save for retirement. These are the years of paying off debt and having the emergency funds in place. These are the years to love on our babies because we never know what will happen in the future. These are the years to dig the well or feed the livestock in preparation for the year of drought.

But what a celebration the 8th and 9th year would be!! It’s in the 8th and 9th year that looking back and KNOWING that only by the grace of God did everything turn out all right. This is the time to lean in to in the future years knowing that God provided before and God will provide again.

All this came upon us, though we had not forgotten you; we had not been false to your covenant. Our hearts had not turned back; our feet had not strayed from your path. But you crushed us and made us a haunt for jackals; you covered us over with deep darkness.

Mark 44:17-19

Sometimes bad things happen to good people. Sometimes kids get abused. Sometimes husbands have heart attacks. Sometimes wives get cancer. Sometimes the bank calls the note. Sometimes the drought never ends. Sometimes a spouse finds another person they think they’d be happier with. Sometimes the economy tanks and we lose our job. Yep. Sometimes life just doesn’t make sense, and I’m not going to even try to pretend to know what some of my readers may be going through.

#unqualified

But I do KNOW that God is faithful and his promises are true. He will come to our aide. I promise this time of trial will end. Life will look different, but God will be with is in and through and on the other side.

Rise up and help us; rescue us because of your unfailing love.

psalm 44:26

I pray for trust. I know that you, Lord have seen us through some really devastating times and I trust that you will provide for us the next time. In the meantime, I ask that you prepare us and provide for us. Forgive me that I take Your provision for granted. I pray for the person reading this right now that they would find hope and trust in You no matter what life situation they find themselves in. I pray that You speak clearly and guide them closer to You through their circumstances.

Do you find yourself in a year of preparation, waiting or celebrating today?

What can I pray for you today?

How have you been called or forced to trust God in the past?

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I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!

  • Leviticus 20:22-22:16
  • Mark 9:1-29
  • Psalm 43:1-5
  • Proverbs 10:18

“If you can?” said Jesus. “Everything is possible for the one who believes.”

Immediately the boy’s father exclaimed, “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!”

Mark 9:23-22

Y’all, I must admit I don’t even know how to approach any of today’s readings. In Leviticus, we read the rules and regulations regarding priests cleanliness. I can’t even begin to relate to these laws, they make no sense to me. I’ve studied them and I know them. Mostly, I know that Jesus came to be the final sacrifice so we no longer have to bring lambs and birds and oxen over and over again. He paid the ultimate sacrifice. Thank you Lord!

In Mark, we learn about miracles of healing. The closest I can come is my experience with pregnancies.

Jeff and I have 2 daughters, as you may know or have read in my bio. But what I haven’t shared is that I have 4 babies in heaven. These babies were miscarried or died in utero at about 10 weeks. My body didn’t do pregnancy well. Two of the babies that died in utero, had to be surgically cleaned out. Someday I’ll write about the heart wrenching pain of miscarriage, but not today. Today, is the miracle of the two that God leant me to raise up.

I had already had 1 miscarriage when I got pregnant with Ashley, and my body just didn’t know what to do. Ashley is a miracle baby because my body threatened miscarriage with her SIX DIFFERENT TIMES. The doctor just kept putting me to bed for a week at a time, which my body and baby seemed to like because she hung out with me. By the time she got here, I was so grateful to hold her….WE MADE IT, baby! WE MADE IT! I held her skin to skin in that hospital bed and cried. We made it baby girl! If we can survive that, we can do anything! She’s my miracle baby.

By the time I got pregnant with Dakota I had three miscarriages. I was a emotional basket case!! *sigh, my poor husband, sigh* I had a diagnosed hormone imbalance and was in the high risk category under a doctors care. The doctors put me on hormones to try and balance my body out, and our circle group fervently prayed over us before & during pregnancy. When she was finally conceived, Jeff and I were elated! The first time I got morning sickness, I celebrated, because that meant my body was doing what it was supposed to be doing, keeping baby safe n’ sound! THENNNN the tests showed that she could possibly be down’s syndrome and all kinds of flags and warnings went up. I didn’t care, she would be a miracle either way. And she is.

These are proof enough that Jesus does really heal in the way that I want Him to sometimes, and my babies in heaven….well, I know that I’ll get to meet them someday. My heavenly babies, all have names. I named them as a way of releasing grief. That’s another story I’ll write some day….not today.

“You unbelieving generation,” Jesus replied, “how long shall I stay with you? How long shall I put up with you? Bring the boy to me.”

Mark 9:19

When I first read this verse, this morning, it felt like a scolding. But after journaling, I don’t think it is. In my prayerful imagination, Jesus and I are sitting on a rock by the water, criss-cross applesauce, like in preschool, and he’s looking at me in the eye, as I cry asking in a loving way as I lay my head on his shoulder. How long shall I stay with you, Theresa? Those words “put up with” can be translated “hold up” or “suffer”. So Jesus, for today, is asking me how long do you need held up? How long will you suffer with this unbelief? Remember THESE miracles!!

Many times my faith wanes, and I can sense that Jesus gets impatient with me. But not today, or at least not at this moment. Today I sit with the memories of the miracles in my life, still feeling the moment that I heard the heartbeat of my little girls and believe.

He replied, “This kind can come out only by prayer.”

Mark 9:29

Lord, thank you for the miracle of my family. You took two broken people and brought forth miracles of life through them. You Lord have held together this family, and for that I am forever grateful. Lord, I believe that you still perform miracles. And Lord, help me when I don’t believe, ok? Be patient with me, again. I pray for miracles in the life of the person reading this. I pray that you are patient with them and help them to see the only NECESSARY miracle and that is that you came and died for us, were raised again and seated at the right hand of the Father. Secure our hope in that.

Amen.

Are you needing prayer today?

What miracles have you seen?

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What did Jesus come to do?

  • Leviticus 13:1-59
  • Mark 6:1-29
  • Psalm 39:1-13
  • Proverbs 10:10

As long as they have the disease they remain unclean. They must live alone; they must live outside the camp.

Leviticus 13:46

This was the prescription for defiling skin diseases. This was also the prescription for mental illnesses of all kinds. and other physical diseases. This was also the prescription for some levels of criminal behavior. These kinds of people were to be avoided and rejected by the community. God was present,visually and spiritually, in the tabernacle and in the camp where everyone else was at. So when a person got inflicted with a disease and got booted out of the camp, they were no longer in the presence of God.

No visitors.

Wear your mask.

Isolation.

Quarantine.

I don’t have children at home any more but I see the effects of children and families regarding covid restrictions. It’s insane what we are doing to people! If you don’t agree with me, I am sorry, but this is ridiculous! The scientific numbers aren’t supporting the isolation that is taking place. The effects of addiction and depression have substantially increased since this quarantine mess has started. Criminal behavior has elevated to unprecedented rates, and frankly I wonder if its not the effect of stress, isolation and the economy. I see my grandchildren not being allowed to go to school, just because they were on the bus with a kid who had been exposed. My daughter was quarantined away from family and friends because she “tested positive”. She had no symptoms. Grandparents are not being allowed to go to sporting events of their grandchildren because of covid regulations. Seniors in nursing homes are even MORE isolated from their families than they were before, all in the name of coronavirus.

I do know people who’ve had covid, and some have gotten really, really sick. I know of 1 person who died. My heart goes out to families and friends who have lost loved ones because of this horrible disease. Also to the ones who have lost friends and family members to heart disease, cancer, pneumonia, sclerosis of the liver, diabetes, the flu. Its heart wrenching to lose someone we love. When someone is sick with any illness, they should stay home, rest, and respect others enough to not go around them.

I wonder though, if we are not killing more people with isolation than we are with covid. What are we doing people? We are killing our society and our economy with this desolation!!

I feel like we are back in the days of Leviticus with this isolation thing. Enough is enough! It is time to get on with life.

5He could not do any miracles there, except lay his hands on a few sick people and heal them. 6He was amazed at their lack of faith.

Mark 6:5-6

Sometimes I wonder if God isn’t trying to get our attention? We all know the high risk groups, right? Those with heart conditions, diabetes, lung disease, cancer and other pre existing illnesses. Also, it seems those who are overweight, who smoke, who drink alcohol excessively, don’t exercise or try to stay healthy are more at risk to getting sicker.

But then, I hear of people who are panicked and afraid to go outside for fear of catching covid but are excessively overweight. Other’s who are afraid to go inside the grocery store, except of course to get their cigarettes. During the shut down last spring, the government stopped allowing church services, but it was ok for liquor stores to be open, because after all we don’t want people to go in to withdrawals. We don’t allow community gatherings of more than 10 people, but riots in large cities are ok.

We have to return to God, friends.

if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and forgive their sin and will heal their land.

2 Chronicles 7:-14

Jesus is the real deal y’all! He CAN and WILL and WANTS TO heal our land. But we as a world MUST:

  • call on His name,
  • humble ourselves
  • pray
  • seek his face
  • repent AKA and turn from our wicked ways

Repenting seems like a crazy super Jesus freak word….but all it means is to turn away from, or change our minds. So if I’m heading down the road to a place and realize that I’ve gone the wrong direction, I can turn away from that direction and go towards the right direction. I repent. Its really just that simple. There’s no judgement there….just a changing of direction.

But now, Lord, what do I look for? My hope is in you.

Hear my prayer, Lord, listen to my cry for help; do not be deaf to my weeping, I dwell with you as a foreigner, a stranger, as all my ancestors were.

psalm 39: 7 & 12

The Psalms teach us how to call upon God, they’re big and sometimes hard to understand, but there are verses in each one that are just a prayer…friends, I pray this for our world. I pray that God would hear my prayer, my cry for help. I turn on the news or read it on my phone and feel like a foreigner or a stranger in this land called America. There is so much violence and hatred. I don’t even go on social media anymore because its full of vitriol and anger. Its like people are spitting at each other.

Ashley said recently, “Mom, I wish we could just all go back to posting pictures and memes”.

Right?!?!

Now it all seems like everyone is playing a political theater game or something.

Whoever winks maliciously causes grief, and a chattering fool comes to ruin.

Proverbs 10:10

Jesus was in his own home town hanging out with the kids he went to carpenter school with played on the football team with. His buddies. In todays world he may have been in his own Facebook group or his own Twitter feed when he said:

“A prophet is not without honor except in his own town, among his relatives and in his own home.”

Mark 6:4

This change in the world, has got to start with one person. Then, like a drop of water in the still pond, it will spread. Turning away from this fear and hatred to the One who can do miracles will seem scary at first. People will doubt you, and they will wonder what got in to you. I even had one person years ago say, “Yea, your mom told me that you got religion.” When I heard that, it felt like being stabbed in the heart. My own mom. A friend. But friends, when Jesus came in to my life, it was worth it. I was able to leave behind some really bad choices and a terribly unhealthy lifestyle. Its not easy being the only one in your family or friend group who believes in this Jesus, but God will send people your way. I promise.

Lord, I am sorry for our lack of faith. I am sorry that you can not do any miracles here because of our sin and doubt. I repent in behalf of our world and nation. I pray that you lay hands on a few sick people and heal them, because they are out there. Lord, heal our land. Heal our world. I thank you that all things are possible for those who believe in you and call upon your name. I pray specifically for the person reading this today, that you would work on their heart, heal their body, mind and spirit and use all these things to draw them and me, closer to you.

How has coronavirus affected you? Can I pray for you today?

What does it mean to you for God to heal our land?

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