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Obedience

Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.

Mark 14:38

I had a dream last night that I was pregnant. Many years ago, someone I worked with was having dreams that she was pregnant. She was probably the age I am now when she was having these dreams. She was also an recent empty nester at that time too. So really, now that I think about it, I am in the same stage in life now, that she was then. At the time, I was in my child bearing years. Anyway, she was having dreams that she was pregnant. She shared with me that her and her spiritual director discussed that God was revealing “new life” for her. She was discerning her “what’s next” in life, similar to what I am now. She determined that her next venture was to be a Spiritual Director, which meant more education and a leap of faith. I remember thinking how awesome it would be to be SO CLEAR about what God was guiding her to do. I was just a baby Christian at the time, and I desperately wanted that kind of vision and clarity.

Then last night, I dreamed I was pregnant. I don’t think its the first time I’ve dreamed that recently, but last nights dream was different because it was REALLY clear. There was so much detail that I could actually see the silhouette form of the baby in my belly. The baby was breech and would be coming soon. Somehow I had to get it turned around so that it could be born. I felt somewhat afraid because I didn’t know how to get the baby headfirst.

That’s my book, I think. I have mentioned before that I feel like I’m supposed to be writing a book or articles or something, and I think that’s my “baby” of the future. That’s my “what’s next”. But then sometimes I get afraid and think, is it? I mean, I’ve never written anything before? Is this just a distraction? I am beginning to believe perhaps this IS true…..but oh my goodness. How in the world am I supposed to be birthing this book?

Do you have something you’re supposed to be doing too? Does it feel impossible? Do you know that God will tell you what it is if you Watch and Pray? Many people don’t believe that, ya know. I believe that the reason our world is in such a mess is because people aren’t seeking God’s will in their lives so people are just running amuck and/or sleeping.

…..I wish that all the Lord’s people were prophets and that the Lord would put his Spirit on them!

Numbers 11:29b

In this passage Moses had gathered up a bunch of his guys and God had laid down his Spirit on them and they “prophesied”. Prophesied in Biblical terms isn’t necessarily revealing the future, its some form of “ecstatic expression to an intense religious experience”, according to the footnote in my Study Bible. Moses wanted everyone to have the same face-to-face conversations with God that he did.

I wonder what the world would be like if everyone one of us had intense prayer time and clear vision of the future like Moses did? Wow! I bet the world would be a different place, wouldn’t it? I want that too. I want it to be like “Speak Lord, ALL your servants are listening!

But Jesus knew that it wasn’t that way. Jesus knew that the human “flesh” is weak. We all get distracted. Like I did yesterday…..

I’ve been so stressed out at my regular job, lots of deadlines and computer work driving me crazy. For about a week, I’ve been pretty lazy in my spare time. I have a habit of playing candy crush. Ugh, its just mind numbing, ya know? I haven’t been eating right either, and yesterday was my run day, and I didn’t go do it. I came home, took a nap, and played candy crush. Then last night I couldn’t sleep, I had a headache.

Phone games and naps are miniscule compared to some of my sinful behaviors in the past. At least alcohol, cigarettes and drugs weren’t involved! (*deep sigh*) But honestly….is it any different? It’s still distracting me from what I KNOW THAT GOD HAS CALLED ME TO BE DOING RIGHT NOW. Couldn’t I have just gone for a walk instead of run if I was tired? I wonder if I would have felt inspired to run after all? Also, there are some writing classes and videos that I need to be watching….but I didn’t do those either.

41Returning the third time, he said to them, “Are you still sleeping and resting? Enough! The hour has come. Look the Son of Man is delivered into the hands of sinners. 42Rise! Let us go! Here comes my betrayer!

Mark 14:41-42

Jesus had been off in the Garden of Gethsemane praying before his crucifixion. He had told Peter, James & John to “Sit here while I pray.” (vs 32). He returned three different times and each time, he found his friends asleep. The first time, he warned them to “Watch and pray so that (they) wouldn’t fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.

Jesus knows our weakness, friends. Do you know yours? I know mine…I have a plethora of weaknesses. Some I don’t indulge in anymore….and some still get me. In the twilight of the morning, I feel this tug of urgency that I wish the whole world felt too!

Rise! Let us go!

Your “To-Do List” may not be writing, gardening, exercise. I don’t know what yours is. Is it blogging? Is it gardening and ministering to others through that (thank you, you know who you are)? Is it volunteering at your church? Do you need to be finding a Bible based church home? Do you need to be mending relationships? Is it getting up early enough to have quiet time with the Lord before the kids get up? Do you have a bad behavior that you need to be getting some help with? Is it to get away from the negative effects of social media? Is it making the first step and cooking a romantic dinner for your husband for after the kids go to bed? What is it?

This morning, I deleted candy crush off my phone, and this other tile placement game…..mind numbing stupid games. I’m going to have my book with me and prepare for my afternoon walk run. What are you doing to prepare for your day?

Dear Lord, I am so grateful that you speak so clearly to me sometimes. I am sorry for my slothfulness. Keep me alert Lord! I pray for the person reading this right now, that they would seek clearly your face today. That you would help them to understand Your will for their life. If they have gotten off track, gently guide them back to the right path to where they need to go. I thank you that you are a light unto MY path Lord. Help me stay on it!

Is there something I can be praying for you today?

Do you know your path?

  • Number 24:13:33
  • Mark 14:22-52
  • Psalm 52:1-9
  • Proverbs 11:1-3

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This Little Light of Mine….I’m Gonna Let It Shine

  • Leviticus 7:28-9:6
  • Mark 3:31-4:25
  • Psalm 37: 12-29
  • Proverbs 10:4-5

He said to them, “Do you bring in a lamp to put it under a bowl or a bed? Instead, don’t you put it on its stand?

Mark 4:21

Every since I came to accept Jesus as my Lord and Savior back in about 1995, I have felt a deep longing to know him more. In the beginning, I took classes at church followed by intense spiritual direction for about 5 years. During that time I began working for our church as an administration assistant, and developed friendships with pastors and learned the mechanics of church ministry. I have always studied the Word, from the very beginning. Then when I was introduced to the Bible in a Year through SOAP Journaling, I was hooked. I’ve been studying this way for about 10 years. I spend 1-2 hours every day, and longer if I can, reading, listening and journaling. I sense that most Christians aren’t like that. In fact, I think we who study the Word are a rare breed.

And really, that’s ok, there’s no prescribed time for reading and journaling. We are all put together differently, each with his or her own gifts. As for me, I have always felt a calling to go deeper in my relationship with God through His word. When I was on the Women’s Retreat Team, it grew even more when I was allowed to speak in public and could see the difference that God’s word made to the women. I am so grateful that God has called me to this role.

And yet, I judge a lot of people, including my daughters think I’m weird. They think I’m a Jesus Freak, and really I am. Have you ever seen one of those people that stand on the street yelling, “The Kingdom is near! Repent!” That’s NOT me. I am NOT a protestor you’d find in front of an abortion clinic. I am NOT leading revivals out on the beach, I can’t even get to those, or I would go to one for sure!!

But I will tell you what I am like…

You know those posts of peoples on Facebook, where they ask the general public for prayers? Well, most people put up the little praying hands, or say “prayers going up” or just say, “I’ll be praying for you.” Not me, I actually type out a prayer for the situation and for the person who’s asking for prayer. If I see you in the grocery store, and you tell me that your husband lost his job, I’m likely to ask you if we can pray, and stop my grocery cart and pray with you, if you’ll allow me to. If you come to my office and tell me that you’ve been diagnosed with cancer, and you’re scared. I will stop what I’m doing and ask if we can pray together, I am likely to lay hands on you and pray for healing. Covid or no covid. If you come to my desk, you’ll likely hear praise and worship coming from the computer speakers behind the billing software on my desk.

That’s me. I’m not in your face about what I believe in, shoving it down your throat, but God has called me to be a light, and I’m not going to hide it.

Consider carefully what you hear,” he continued. “With the measure you use, it will be measured to you – and even more.

It hasn’t been until the last couple of years that I’ve heard the call to write and that’s because I judge that God has spoken to me long enough that He wants me to speak to others about Him. In the beginning I was recovering from years of abuse, both other-inflicted and self-inflicted. I was in no condition to be talking to people about the Lord, because I didn’t know him well enough. I don’t know how to say this more emphatically other than to just say it.

God sent his only son, Jesus, to be born of a virgin, to live among us as a man, be horrifically crucified, die and rose again. He is CURRENTLY sitting at the right hand of the Father, interceding in our behalf so that we can spend eternity with him. He did ALL THIS before you were born, before you sinned, before you made ALLLLL those mistakes in judgement. Yes, EVEN THAT SIN. Yes, sisters and brothers. EVEN THAT one.

When you believe this, and put your trust in him, he will not only forgive you, but set you on the right path to fix whatever it is that is messed up in your life as a result. I PROMISE this is true.

We’ve been having some horrific weather in this part of the country. One day I woke up and it was -22 f. One day the windchill factor was -27 f. During times of inclimate weather, cows tend to get stressed out and have their babies during the bad weather. For instance, one year we had a mama cow birth her calf in the creek bed. I know many cattle men & women around here that lost calves this past weekend. Some farmers ended up bottle feeding or putting babies under heat lamps in hopes of saving them. Calves just don’t fare well going from a 125 degree mama to -26 degree snow and ice environment. Jeff and I prayed and prayed, I literally stood out in our cow lot praying for God to hold off the babies until after the snow storm and if they did come, to please perform a miracle and have them go to the barn that Jeff and I cleared out for them. I was believing in the promise that God has plans to prosper us, not to bring us harm. But always, not my will, but thy will be done.

Well it happened, miracle of miracles, yesterday a mama cow had her baby in the northwest corner of the barn. They NEVER do that, friends! That mama and her calf were waiting for us in the barn yesterday afternoon when we got off work. I almost cried. God really does hear our prayers, friends! It may not ALWAYS seem that way, but sometimes, like in this instance, it is very apparent.

The Lord makes firm the steps of the one who delights in him; though he may stumble he will not fall, for the Lord upholds him with his hand.

Psalm 37:23-24

I wrote yesterday that it was difficult to write the journal entry. I just wasn’t feeling very delightful. It was a sheer effort just get the writing done. Then I had to go to the grocery store yesterday, in the cold and snow. I had gotten into an argument with my daughters a few days ago because sometimes it just feels like they take me for granted, so I’ve been feeling very entitled and prideful. But I worked hard through yesterday’s “Take delight in the Lord” study. I prayed and thought through what it meant for YESTERDAY to be soft, dainty, delicate and pliable. Some days, like yesterday, all that means is NOT crawling back in bed and pulling the covers over my head. Sometimes it just means being obedient in the tasks ahead.

This is my lamp. This blog and, I pray, the book I intend to write. People are going to think I’m weird, and I don’t care. Well, wait, that’s not true. I DO care. I want everyone to have a relationship with the Lord, like I do! I want everyone to get saved! I want a community of believers like we find in the book of Acts

They devoted themselves to the apostles teaching and to fellowship, to the breaking of bread and to prayer……All the believers were together and had everything in common.

Acts 2:42 & 44

So, I can’t say I don’t CARE if this is my vision. But you know, I would be naive if I didn’t admit there are alot of mockers out there that are going to ridicule me, and some of those are in my own family. But so be it. This is my only prayer for my writings today:

If anyone has ears to hear, let them hear. Consider carefully what you hear,” he continue. “With the measure you use, it will be measured to you – and even more.

Mark 2 23-24

Lord, you promise in Psalm 37:29, “The righteous will inherit the land and dwell in it forever.” I thank you for your promises and I know that I am only righteous when I put my faith and hope in You. Guard my heart and give me the courage to put the light you have put on my heart, on a stand for all to see. Give me strength to endure when my feelings get hurt by what others say, guide mto on the path toward learning how to put what is hidden in my heart in print. Guide those you intend to see it, to my writings. I know you have plans to prosper me and give me a hope and a future. If it be through cattle, through gardening, through writing, I receive your blessing.

Have you ever experienced rejection for your beliefs?

Where have you learned about God and his love for you?

What does it mean to you to know that God sent his only son to die for your sins. What does it mean to you to put your faith in Jesus Christ?

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