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Obedience

Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.

Mark 14:38

I had a dream last night that I was pregnant. Many years ago, someone I worked with was having dreams that she was pregnant. She was probably the age I am now when she was having these dreams. She was also an recent empty nester at that time too. So really, now that I think about it, I am in the same stage in life now, that she was then. At the time, I was in my child bearing years. Anyway, she was having dreams that she was pregnant. She shared with me that her and her spiritual director discussed that God was revealing “new life” for her. She was discerning her “what’s next” in life, similar to what I am now. She determined that her next venture was to be a Spiritual Director, which meant more education and a leap of faith. I remember thinking how awesome it would be to be SO CLEAR about what God was guiding her to do. I was just a baby Christian at the time, and I desperately wanted that kind of vision and clarity.

Then last night, I dreamed I was pregnant. I don’t think its the first time I’ve dreamed that recently, but last nights dream was different because it was REALLY clear. There was so much detail that I could actually see the silhouette form of the baby in my belly. The baby was breech and would be coming soon. Somehow I had to get it turned around so that it could be born. I felt somewhat afraid because I didn’t know how to get the baby headfirst.

That’s my book, I think. I have mentioned before that I feel like I’m supposed to be writing a book or articles or something, and I think that’s my “baby” of the future. That’s my “what’s next”. But then sometimes I get afraid and think, is it? I mean, I’ve never written anything before? Is this just a distraction? I am beginning to believe perhaps this IS true…..but oh my goodness. How in the world am I supposed to be birthing this book?

Do you have something you’re supposed to be doing too? Does it feel impossible? Do you know that God will tell you what it is if you Watch and Pray? Many people don’t believe that, ya know. I believe that the reason our world is in such a mess is because people aren’t seeking God’s will in their lives so people are just running amuck and/or sleeping.

…..I wish that all the Lord’s people were prophets and that the Lord would put his Spirit on them!

Numbers 11:29b

In this passage Moses had gathered up a bunch of his guys and God had laid down his Spirit on them and they “prophesied”. Prophesied in Biblical terms isn’t necessarily revealing the future, its some form of “ecstatic expression to an intense religious experience”, according to the footnote in my Study Bible. Moses wanted everyone to have the same face-to-face conversations with God that he did.

I wonder what the world would be like if everyone one of us had intense prayer time and clear vision of the future like Moses did? Wow! I bet the world would be a different place, wouldn’t it? I want that too. I want it to be like “Speak Lord, ALL your servants are listening!

But Jesus knew that it wasn’t that way. Jesus knew that the human “flesh” is weak. We all get distracted. Like I did yesterday…..

I’ve been so stressed out at my regular job, lots of deadlines and computer work driving me crazy. For about a week, I’ve been pretty lazy in my spare time. I have a habit of playing candy crush. Ugh, its just mind numbing, ya know? I haven’t been eating right either, and yesterday was my run day, and I didn’t go do it. I came home, took a nap, and played candy crush. Then last night I couldn’t sleep, I had a headache.

Phone games and naps are miniscule compared to some of my sinful behaviors in the past. At least alcohol, cigarettes and drugs weren’t involved! (*deep sigh*) But honestly….is it any different? It’s still distracting me from what I KNOW THAT GOD HAS CALLED ME TO BE DOING RIGHT NOW. Couldn’t I have just gone for a walk instead of run if I was tired? I wonder if I would have felt inspired to run after all? Also, there are some writing classes and videos that I need to be watching….but I didn’t do those either.

41Returning the third time, he said to them, “Are you still sleeping and resting? Enough! The hour has come. Look the Son of Man is delivered into the hands of sinners. 42Rise! Let us go! Here comes my betrayer!

Mark 14:41-42

Jesus had been off in the Garden of Gethsemane praying before his crucifixion. He had told Peter, James & John to “Sit here while I pray.” (vs 32). He returned three different times and each time, he found his friends asleep. The first time, he warned them to “Watch and pray so that (they) wouldn’t fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.

Jesus knows our weakness, friends. Do you know yours? I know mine…I have a plethora of weaknesses. Some I don’t indulge in anymore….and some still get me. In the twilight of the morning, I feel this tug of urgency that I wish the whole world felt too!

Rise! Let us go!

Your “To-Do List” may not be writing, gardening, exercise. I don’t know what yours is. Is it blogging? Is it gardening and ministering to others through that (thank you, you know who you are)? Is it volunteering at your church? Do you need to be finding a Bible based church home? Do you need to be mending relationships? Is it getting up early enough to have quiet time with the Lord before the kids get up? Do you have a bad behavior that you need to be getting some help with? Is it to get away from the negative effects of social media? Is it making the first step and cooking a romantic dinner for your husband for after the kids go to bed? What is it?

This morning, I deleted candy crush off my phone, and this other tile placement game…..mind numbing stupid games. I’m going to have my book with me and prepare for my afternoon walk run. What are you doing to prepare for your day?

Dear Lord, I am so grateful that you speak so clearly to me sometimes. I am sorry for my slothfulness. Keep me alert Lord! I pray for the person reading this right now, that they would seek clearly your face today. That you would help them to understand Your will for their life. If they have gotten off track, gently guide them back to the right path to where they need to go. I thank you that you are a light unto MY path Lord. Help me stay on it!

Is there something I can be praying for you today?

Do you know your path?

  • Number 24:13:33
  • Mark 14:22-52
  • Psalm 52:1-9
  • Proverbs 11:1-3

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God and Moses Have Words

  • Numbers 10:1-11:23
  • Mark 14:1-21
  • Psalm 51:1-19
  • Proverbs 10:31-32

While he was in Bethany reclining at the table in the home of Simon the Leper, a woman came with an alabaster jar of very expensive perfume, made of pure nard. She broke the jar and poured the perfume on his head.

Marl 14:3

Everything I write here today, or any day for that matter, is in pure worship to the Lord. God changed my life for the better and in all I do, I intend it to give God the glory and praise like the woman who anointed Jesus.

Having said that, what I am posting today is also in curiosity of how to approach God. In the readings from Numbers today, Moses isn’t very happy with God, in fact, he seems resentful and irritated about the role in which God has put him. So in a complete sense of awe and worship, I journal about this conversation between God and Moses.

Before I begin I pray: Lord, I thank you that I know You, and I believe that this recorded conversation You and Moses had is an example of how we imperfect humans can talk to you. We can talk to you in our rawness and pain and hurt and happiness and excitement and doubt and fear and irritation and anger and pain and joy and love and ……., Well, You get it….in our human-ness. These verses that are recorded in Numbers are an example of just how much you love and accept us and that You will receive our words and meet us where we are. Help me to communicate that well. Amen.

The rabble with them began to crave other food, and again the Israelites started wailing and said, “If only we had meat to eat! We remember the fish we at in Egypt at no cost – also the cucumbers, melons, leaks, onions and garlic. But now we have lost our appetite; we never see anything but this manna! The manna was like coriander seed and looked like resin. The people went around gathering it, and then ground it in a hand mill or crushed in a mortar. They cooked it in a pot or made it into loaves. And it tasted like something made with olive oil. When the dew settled on the camp at night, the manna also came down.

Numbers 11:4-9

The Israelites were in a DESERT. Deserts aren’t known for their plentiful food supply or water supply. This was the only resource they had, and all they had to do was gather what God had provided and prepare it. They didn’t have to punch a clock or hunt it down. It just showed up. But this wasn’t good enough, they complained and dreamt about the days of old, where they had to make bricks out of clay for a meager day’s wage.

On a side note, they were SLAVES back in Egypt. They probably didn’t have access to much other than bread anyway. But this “rabble” represents those who distract them from the reality of what slavery was, filling their heads with what they “should be entitled to”.

Ever complained about what life was like “before”? Yea. Me too. Not proud of it.

Moses heard the people of every family wailing at the entrance to their tents. The Lord became exceedingly angry, and Moses was troubled.

Numbers 11: 10

Uh oh. God’s gonna get mad ya’ll! You saw what happened the last time he got mad! There was vengeance to pay! “Moses was troubled….”

He asked the Lord,

Why have you brought this trouble on your servant?

What have I done to displease you that you put the burden of all these people on me?

Did I conceive all these people? Did I give them birth?

Why do you tell me to carry them in my arms as a nurse carries and infant, to the land You promised on oath to their ancestors?

Where can I get meat for all these people? They keep wailing to me, ‘Give us meat to eat! I cannot carry all these people to myself; the burden is too heavy for me.

If this is how You are going to treat me, please go ahead and kill me – if I have found favor in your eyes – and do not let me face my own ruin.

Number 11:11-15

At first Moses seems to try and put a guilt trip on God. “Look at what YOU have put on ME! Why have YOU done THIS to ME!! YOU did this to ME! I don’t deserve this! How dare you God! You said you were going to save the people, but why put this burden on me! I was doing just fine out with my family before this fame and fortune, and…..etc etc etc.

But this is good stuff ya’ll….listen, God can take this. So God is just quiet and then I picture Moses caving in falling to his knees, begging for this burden to be lifted. Its too heavy Lord, I can’t do it! I feel so alone….Help me.

The Lord says to Moses: “Bring me seventy of Israel’s elders who are known to you as leaders and officials among the people Have them come to the tent of meeting, that they may stand there with you. I will come down and speak with you there, and I will take some of the power of the Spirit that is on you and put it on them. They will share the burden of the people with you so that you will not have to carry it alone.

Numbers 11:16-17

God provides for Moses’ need. Moses gets raw and real and desperate and God is sending help in the form of church elders.

Friends, your church leaders are just humans that have received a gift from God. And sometimes, I judge, this gift of leadership comes at a heavy price. There have been some pretty serious wrongs done by church leaders and I wonder if its because they didn’t scream for help when the burden got to be too much! Everyone needs help, and no one can carry the leadership load alone. Here God provided an accountability group for Moses. People, in their human pride get scared to ask for help.

If you are a church leader, do you have an accountability group?

Does your church leader have a support group?

No one is meant to walk this journey alone. Don’t be afraid to speak to God HONESTLY and then DO WHAT HE SAYS to do to get the help you need.

Tell the people: ‘Consecrate yourselves in preparation for tomorrow, when you will eat meat. The Lord heard you when you wailed, “if only we had meat to eat! We were better off in Egypt!” Now the Lord will give you meat, and you will eat it. You will not eat it for just one day, or two days, or five, ten or twenty days, but for a whole month – until it comes out of your nostrils and you loathe it – because you have rejected the Lord, who is among you, and have wailed before him, “why did we ever leave Egypt?

Numbers 11: 18-20

Uhhhhh, have you ever heard the phrase, “be careful what you wish for, because you just might get it”? Yea, it applies here. The people got quail all right. I came falling from the sky around them. When the quail came, it came in droves and the people had to clean them and prepare them. So let’s put that in to visual.

Quail falls from the sky. Then it has to be de-feathered. Then it has to be gutted. Then it has to be cooked. Then the bones, guts and feathers have to be burned, buried or disposed of somehow, or they’re going to rot and stink, right? Every single meal and day for a month. Plus they have the manna to deal with. Now what happens if they don’t process with quail? Well, it rots, right? Then maggots and flies gather. Plus the meat is going to attract predators, like coyotes and fox and snakes. So they have to get rid of it fast.

…..until it comes out of your nostrils and you loathe it…..yea, that much.

Be careful what you wish for because you just might get it.

Lord, thank you for all I have and all I will have because of your grace. I thank you for this honest conversation between You and Moses. Help me to know when it’s time to ask for help and to trust you with my burdens, knowing that you will guide me and help me. I pray for the person reading this that if they are in need of an accountability group or a team to help them carry a burden, I pray that they get real and honest with you so that you can send them what they need. I thank you for the opportunity to see that like the Israelites in the desert, we have so much to be grateful for, forgive me when I complain.

What are you grateful for today?

Is there a burden you need help with? How can I pray for you today?

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Watch For Clarity

Therefore keep watch because you do not know when the owner of the house will come back – whether in the evening, or at midnight, or when the rooster crows, or at dawn. If he comes suddenly, do not let him find you sleeping. What I say to you, I say to everyone: ‘Watch!‘ “

Mark 13:35-37

Jesus is speaking with his disciples regarding the End Times. In Christian media there’s a lot of talk about us being in the End Times, right now. Some current day prophets speak openly about it, and perhaps its true. I don’t know. Even Jesus said, “But about that day or hour no one knows, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father.” (vs 32)

So no one knows if these are the End Times or not. Yes there is a plague, and there are rumors of wars, and there are wars, and there are persecutions, and there is famine in some lands, lots of “signs”. But NO ONE knows and its important for us to be careful to who and what we are listening too. Jesus said to them: “Watch out that no one deceives you.” (vs 5)

What I do understand is this….

It’s like a man going away: He leaves his house and puts his servants in charge, each with their assigned task, and tells the one at the door to keep watch.

Mark 13:37

Each of us has a job to do for the Master’s House….which is this earthly world. Are you doing yours? Are you sure?

I ask this to myself as well as you. And the answer is…………

I sure hope so.

I pray this that I am. To be honest sometimes I feel uncertain. I pray that the directions that I’ve heard are God guiding me in the right direction. Here’s how I discern:

  • I read the Word every single day.
  • I pray and ask God to guide me throughout my day and teach me His will for my life
  • I do my job which for today is:
    • Take care of my family
    • Do my farm chores
    • Go to my place of employment
    • Treat others around me with compassion and empathy and respect
    • Tithe to my church
    • Journal here on my blog
    • Pray for the people in my life, including those who follow and read my blog

That’s it. That’s all we CAN do, right? Pray, ask God for guidance. Then go do that.

On the day the tabernacle, the tent of the covenant law, was set up, the cloud covered it. From evening till morning the cloud above the tabernacle looked like fire.

Number 9:15

The Israelites were in the desert after escaping from slavery in Egypt, by the hand of God. God was providing manna in the desert for them and had given them the 10 Commandments. Now all they had to do was obey them and live together in the desert. I say “this is all they had to do” like living in a desert wouldn’t be difficult. I mean, eating the same old manna EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. for FORTY YEARS probably got kind of old huh? But notice that the cloud looked like fire….it served as a light for the desert tenants to live by.

Whenever the cloud lifted from above the tent, the Israelites set out; wherever the cloud settled, the Israelites encamped. At the Lord’s command the Israelites set out, and at his command they encamped. As long as the cloud (of fire) stayed over the tabernacle, they remained in camp.

Numbers 9:17-18

Clarity. Pray for clarity. Clarity comes when we can see, right? Like by fire. The Israelites KNEW when it was time to move from this place, this situation, this circumstance because the light was lifted. We have to TRUST that when the time is right, when the decision is right, God will make it clear…..like fire clear! It takes daily prayer and watchfulness.

When I decided to move forward with my “idea” of writing, I decided to clear out a room in my house and make it an office. I’ve never been a writer before, except in my own daily journals. This seems like an outlandish idea some days…..but I’m taking classes and learning. I started practicing by writing on this blog….I would have never dreamed that I’d be attempting this. But I have been receiving affirmations from several different places. One big one for me is from the fact that this FEELS right. I have some clarity that I’ve not had for a very long time. For a couple of years I’ve felt like I was supposed to be “DOING something”. Since I moved forward with my idea, I’ve felt a sense of joy and peace that feel purposeful.

Interestingly enough, when I started to decorate my frilly little office, the first thing I did was go look for paint. I was looking for a color of yellow. One of the color samples that I chose happened to be named, “Clarity“. Which is EXACTLY the word I use when I pray for God to guide me. Like I said, I’ve been feeling like I am supposed to be doing SOMETHING, and asking for clarity….and then clarity. Circumstance? I think not. Thank you, Lord.

So are you watching? Are you doing the thing you’re supposed to be doing while we wait for the Master to return? Do you need clarity? Pray for it friend, and I’ll be praying for you too.

Father God, I thank you for this reading today. Thank you that when we ask, you will provide clarity and direction in our lives. I pray for the person reading this that they would turn to you and receive you wholeheartedly in their lives, that it wouldn’t just be going through the motions, but that they’d be ALL IN, watching in hope and faithfulness.

What can I be praying for you today?

What does it mean to WATCH?

What are your thoughts about End Times?

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What is Love?

  • Numbers 4:1-5:31
  • Mark 12:18-37
  • Psalm 48:1-14
  • Proverbs 10:26

Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength. The second is this: Love your neighbor as yourself. There is no commandment greater than these.

Mark 12:30-31

Recently, I was asked to pray with and for a friend who is going through something terrible in her family. One of her close family members had a tough decision to make. My friend did all the right things, she supported and counselled her family member. She got some professional help for the family. She set up a Facebook prayer message with her church family, and included me in that group. A few of us fasted and prayed, others prayed. Some of the women put up the praying hands, some said words of affirmations to my friend and her family. Some prayed for a specific decision. And most agreed, “Thy will be done, Father.” I don’t know who these other women are, but some of them had the most exquisite prayers. I sat in awe at their raw-ness and humility. For several days we’ve been keeping Facebook Messenger vigil over this decision.

My friend had asked some of her family to be praying too, so there was also a completely separate prayer message going on during this time. All of us praying for the “good” outcome. Its really beautiful knowing that so many people pulled together to pray for this family, I felt honored and blessed to virtually meet with these souls and pour blessings over my friend and her family.

Finally, the day arrived for the decision to get made. Unfortunately, the choice was not what we had all hoped for. Human Free Will, given by God prevailed and the outcome wasn’t what we had thought or hoped would happen.

I found myself a little jarred by this. Like being in a car accident really, driving along thinking its a beautiful sunny day, what could go wrong with all these virtual friends by my side, and then WHAM! I get sideswiped by free will decision making gone awry. My friend was devastated. This decision made will alter the path of her family forever, and my friend has no control over it. She did all she could and has to live with the choice of another forever.

What do we do with that? What do we do when bad choices get made and they fundamentally change the way things are “supposed to be”? What do we do when someone close to us abandons the faith that they have been taught and raised in? Because essentially that’s what happened, the family member made a decision to do something that seems to be the opposite of “What Jesus Would Do”? What do we do especially when these decisions are made by our adult children, and you just want to grab their shoulders and shake them saying, “What are you thinking?!?! I taught you better than this!!”

Many of the women in my virtual prayer meeting said, “You love her unconditionally like Jesus loves us.” This is so true, absolutely, we’ve all done things and made choices that Jesus Wouldn’t Do or Make. (there should be a book like that) I totally agree. But if I’m honest, and I usually am, that’s not what my instinct says. My instinct is to put up my hand and walk away, saying you made your choice, now deal with it. Talk to the hand sis.

Love the Lord your God

with all your heart and

with all your soul and

with all your mind and

with all your strength.

Mark 12:30

Sometimes, friends, we have to break down the Words of Jesus in to baby steps. This is one of those times, because I my Enneagram 4-ness has a difficult time navigating feelings and thoughts in my daily.

Love is an action word. Its just that simple. We make a decision to love every time we cook dinner after work even though we’d rather just plop down on the couch with a cup of tea. Love is getting up early on Saturday morning for little league and staying gone till after dark because your kid is pretty good this year. Love is wiping snotty noses that are gross and slimy. Love is cleaning up the vomit of a loved one whose chemotherapy treatments are tough this week. That’s LOVE, ya’ll. Its not ALWAYS that mushy gushy feeling when we first meet the person we “fell in love” with, or the look on that sweet baby’s face when they’re asleep. LOVE friends, is an action word.

In scripture the Heart is talking about the very center of a human. A person’s will, intention, character are the Heart. Some of the reference on biblehub.com state that Heart refers to “the understanding, the faculty and seat of intelligence”. This again, isn’t that sparkle in the eye heart, this Heart is where decisions get made at. My husband and I of 29 years, talk often of how we have made the DECISION to love each other for all these numbers of years. That doesn’t mean we don’t have intimate mushy gushy times, but certainly there have been days where, my Heart was the seat of intelligence to Love him and while I think I’m pretty cool, I’m sure its been the same for him.

Soul is translated to greek as Psuche. Psuche is also described as the Breath of Life. The Bible tells us that when God created man he breathed life in to him, every creature on earth that God made, He breathed life it to. This is Psuche. The place where God lives. Our Soul. THAT is where we love from…we allow God to breathe in to us so that we are able to love when bad choices and decisions get made that make it really difficult for my humanness to love with.

With all your Mind. So this is the part where I have to take off my emotional cap and put on my thinking cap. Not really a strong suit, to be honest. This work in Greek is dianioa, it means intellect, thought, understanding. When I was thinking about all this situation yesterday and was madder than a wet hen about the choice that got made I remembered Matthew 5:

You have heard that it was said to people long ago, ‘You shall not murder, and anyone who murders will be subject to judgement. But I tell you that anyone who is angry with a brother or sister will be subject to judgement. Again, anyone who says to a brother or sister, ‘Raca,’ is answerable to the court. And anyone who says, ‘You fool!’ will be in danger of the fire of hell.

Matthew 5:21-22

Well, alrighty then! I guess my Mind better take over this Love I need to put in to action, right? This is the part where I repeat over and over and over and over in my Mind that Jesus came to this earth to die for me even before I was born to save me from the stupid decisions I made too. Don’t feel, just think.

Now let’s talk about what the decision to Love DOESN’T mean. This kind of Love DOESN’T mean sticking around for abuse or condoning bad behavior. When people we love do things that we don’t understand, are hurtful to ourselves or others, when we aren’t protected, sometimes requires Strength to let go. This decision to love takes Strength during times when life just doesn’t make sense. Sometimes it means sitting in a pile of tears watching them walk away in to their destiny with nothing but the clothes on their back. Sometimes people have to experience the consequences of their poor choices so that they can hopefully turn back to God, when those consequences get tough. And they will get tough. To Love someone enough to watch them walk away takes the Strength of an army. Loving someone sometimes means letting them go, even though the very cell of our being wants to hold on to them. This kind of Strength can only come through prayer and with the help of friends and family and perhaps even a support group.

So Lord, this is a long journal entry, and I didn’t even know where to begin when I started. But as always you walked me through it and I feel stronger than before. Thank you. Lord, teach me to love like this. Thank you for your patience and understanding. Thank you that you loved me, before I was even lovable. I pray for the person reading this that you would guide them closer to you through this writing, thank you that you brought them here today.

Have you ever had to let go of someone you love because of their bad decisions?

What do you do when your prayers seem unanswered?

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Gratitude

  • Number 2:1-3:51
  • Mark 11:27-12:17
  • Psalm 47:1-9
  • Proverbs 10:24-25

Clap your hands, all you nations; shout to God with cries of joy.

For the Lord Most High is awesome, the great King over all the earth.

Psalm 47:1-2

Today’s Psalm is a song of praise to God. A Psalm of GRATITUDE. I found seven scientifically proven benefits of gratitude on the https://www.psychologytoday.com blog.

  • Gratitude opens the door to more relationships
  • Gratitude improves physical health
  • Gratitude improves psychological health
  • Gratitude enhances empathy & reduces aggression
  • Expressing gratitude improves sleep
  • Feeling grateful improves self-esteem
  • Having gratitude improves mental strength

And who wouldn’t want those?!?! Back in my real estate days part of my business plan was to send at least 10 Thank You Notes to my database every week. So lets do this, shall we? Lets NAME the things we are grateful for….the little things.

He subdued nations under us, peoples under our feet. He chose our inheritance for us, the pride of Jacob, whom he loved.

Psalm 47:3-4

I am grateful for my little farm. These past 2 weeks 3 of the mama cows have given birth to babies. Baby cows are so cute. They play and jump around like children. They’re totally amazing because within about 5 minutes of birthing, they are up walking around and nursing. When they’re this young you can almost get close enough to touch them. In fact, my husband said that our grandson was able to pet one this past weekend. These aren’t this year’s calves….they are last year pictures. I really need to get some current photos. All the pics in today’s blog are from previous years.

God has ascended amid shouts of joy the Lord amid the sounding of trumpets. Sing praises to God, sing praises; sing praises to our King, sing praises. For God is the King of all the earth; sing to him a psalm of praise

Psalm 47:5-7

The weather yesterday was beautiful! It was about 68 degrees F and sunny. I have a desk-bound project at work and it is super tedious so I was super anxious to get off work at 2:30 and go for a 3 mile run/walk! I’m grateful that at 56 years old, I can run for that length. To be honest, in January & February, I didn’t run very much, and have just restarted my running program, so I’m out of shape and so I really just did a run-walk. But 3 miles is 3 miles!

Then when I got home, I still had time to plant my onion sets in the feed trough gardens we have set up. There are 200 onions in 1 of these feed troughs that have drain holes in the bottom of them. I love reusing old items for new purposes. The pictures here aren’t this year’s garden feed troughs, but this is what they are.

God reigns over the nations; God is seated on his holy throne. The nobles of the nations assemble as the people of the God of Abraham, for the kings of the earth belong to God he is greatly exalted.

Psalm 47:8-9

There is alot of political turmoil in this world….but I promise you this, God still reigns over the nations. No matter what happens, friends, remember that God reigns over the nations. God is still seated on his holy throne. The kings of the earth….ALL OF THEM…ALL the political leaders of the earth were created by and belong to God. In the end, God has final authority over what happens. So no matter what God is greatly exalted, we need not be afraid. Some day every knee shall bend and every tongue confess that God is the Lord. #facts

My daughter called me day before yesterday and invited me to lunch! We spent an hour catching up. She is a busy mom of four and I miss spending time with her so much that it hurts sometimes. I yearn for time alone with her, that never really goes away when they grow up, ya know? Anyway, I am really grateful that she took time out to have lunch with me. Last Friday, my youngest daughter and I took off work early to go shopping to find a dress for her engagement photos. We had sushi, then went shopping. Spent way too much money, and I don’t care. It was a wonderful time, and all our funds are provided by God, and so we will always have more than enough for what we need. When I think we don’t have enough….I will be grateful for what we have. This is again a 2 year old picture. Sheesh, I need to get updated pictures!!

I’m grateful for my husband of 29 years. I would be lost without you, Jeff. You complete me. Lord, thank you especially for my sweet husband. He’s such a hard worker and supports all my crazy endeavors. God sent me Jeff so that I could become more of the woman that God intended me to be….it wasn’t always easy, but it is definitely worth it. This picture was taken on our 29th wedding anniversary in Eureka Springs, Arkansas at the Passion of Jesus Pageant they have there. I love you, Jeff.

Dear Lord, thank you for the many blessings in my life and I am so sorry for the times I complain. Thank you for this day to celebrate the life you have given me. Teach me to love you and love those around me better each day. I thank you for the person who is reading this right now. I pray that you use this blog post to remind them of their many blessings and that they would know that it is YOU who created them and YOU who love them so much that you sent your only son to live among us, be crucified and die for our sins. ALL of our sins, no matter what they are, were redeemed for on that blessed day. Then Jesus rose again and is seated at YOUR right hand, gone ahead to prepare a place for those of us who put our faith in you. I pray that the person reading this would turn their life over to you and draw close to you.

What are you grateful for today?

Is there anything that I can pray for you today?

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Be still

He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”

Psalm 46:10

I looked out at the dark morning through the window in front of my desk, seeing only the reflection of me in my jammies and become aware of the fact that my shoulders were up around my ears. What in the world ya’ll?? Its 5:45 a.m., and I already have tension in my neck and shoulders? No wonder I have neck and shoulder pain all the time! Closing my eyes, I intentionally relaxed my shoulders and breath . I feel my whole body release.

Aaaahhhhhh, that feels better.

Ok, now you do it! Take notice of your shoulders…are they tensed up? Ok, relax them just for a second. Notice any difference? Ahhhh. Be still, and know that God is God.

I do have a tendency to carry stress and the worries of the world on my shoulders. Always a To-Do-List rattling around in my head. Forever wondering if the conversations I had yesterday were ok. Endlessly thinking about people, places and things for the future.

“Be still,” God says in my heart, “I WILL be exalted among the nations, I WILL BE exalted in the earth. And really, Theresa, there’s not much you can do to speed that up or slow that down. Its happening. Period.”

Have faith in God,” Jesus answered. “Truly I tell you, if anyone says to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea’ and does not doubt in their heart but believes that what they say will happen, it will be done for them. Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.”

Mark 11:22-24

Jesus had just performed a miracle by withering up a fig tree that wasn’t bearing fruit and his disciples were amazed. Jesus reassures them that they can make stuff happen too….if they only believe.

And trust.

And relax their shoulders.

Jesus had also just flipped tables in the temple courts. So he had been MAD too! Who wants to be the one to make God mad? Not me! I would definitely have had tense shoulders! So I read up on this flipping tables moment in time.

This happened in the temple courts which was the ONLY place that the Gentiles, AKA outsiders, could go to worship God and gather for prayer. They weren’t allowed inside the temple courts. The vendors coming to sell animals and exchange money set their tables up there in the ONLY place for these not normally included outcasts to worship. How is one supposed to pray and worship with goats bleating, doves cooing, and vendors yelling? These people were probably those who yearned for God. The desperate ones. The ones that took that last leap of faith. Yet, they had to compete with the oxen and pushy salesmen pushing their goods.

I’m a sucker for the underdog, ya know? When I see or predict a situation where an injustice is happening or when there is tension in the area….well….my shoulders get all tensed up, and I’m ready to go to battle.

But that’s not always my job is it? In this case, its God’s job. My job is to “Have faith in God….not doubt in my heart….believe” (Mark 11:22-24 abbreviated) But there is some requirements of me.

And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive them, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins.

Mark 11:25

Forgiveness. Its trick isn’t it? While I am standing still, praying, take note of any forgiveness that needs to happen. God WILL accomplish miracles….in fact, God already has accomplished miracles. God already sent his only son, Jesus, to live among us, teach us how to love one another by dying for us, and was resurrected on the third day. Now He is seated at the right hand of the Father. That’s the miracle, the rest will just fall into place, whether I’m all tensed up or not.

Father God, I thank you for your Word that reminds me that you already have all this under control. No matter what I do, say, write or don’t write, Your Name WILL BE exalted in the earth. Help me to know what it means to be still today. I pray for the person reading this that You would speak to their heart, encourage each person with the understanding that You already have this under control. Lord, I desire to be part of your plan to bring glory to Your Name. Show me how to do that. Teach me Lord, how I can be part of your plan in such a time as this.

Is there something that you can trust God with?

What does it mean to you to Be Still?

How can I pray for you today?

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Reward for Obedience

  • Leviticus 25:47-27:13
  • Mark 10: 32:52
  • Psalm 45:1-17
  • Proverbs 10:22

Not so with you. Instead whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant, and whoever wants to be first must be slave of all. For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many.

Mark 10:43-44

This servant verse isn’t what I originally thought about journaling about. At first, I thought about writing about the Leviticus verses. I like those better….they were more along the lines of how my empty nest womanhood understands this Christian life should be. Lets look at Leviticus 26:1-13

Do not make idols or set up an image or a sacred stone for yourselves….I am the Lord your God. Observe my Sabbaths and have reverence for my sanctuary, I am the Lord.

Lev 26: 1-2

Check! Got that part! I don’t have any golden calfs or totem poles at my place. I go to church every Sunday, and many Sunday’s I’ll take a nap. This one I got, Lord! Now what?

If you follow my decrees and are careful to obey my commands, I will send you rain….the ground will yield its crops…the trees their fruit…..you will eat all the food you want and live in a safety in your land. I will grant peace and make you lie down and no one will make you afraid. I will remove wild beasts,….You will pursue your enemies, and they will fall…..I will look on you with favor and make you fruitful and increase your numbers,….I will walk among you and be your God….I enabled you to walk with heads held high.

Lev 26: 3-13 (abbreviated)

So, lemme make sure I got this right. If I go to church every week, do my Bible studies, do my work, then God, you’ll provide for all my needs and everyone is going to look at me and see how much you blessed me? No enemies, all the food and drink I can handle, lots of honor. I can do that! I like this part! Bring on the blessings especially the part about walking with my head held high! Pride! I’m good at that one!

Then Jesus came….and in Mark we learn its not EXACTLY as clear cut as it seems here.

Then James and John, the sons of Zebedee, came to him, “Teacher,” they said, “we want you to do for us whatever we ask.”

Mark 10:35

It may as well have said, “Theresa” in that verse, because so many times, I go to the Lord saying that I want God to do whatever I want, when I want it, how I want it. Ugh.

What do you want me to do for you?” He asked.

vs 36

Jesus had told them for the 3rd time that they were on their way up to Jerusalem so that he could be handed over to the chief priests and the teachers of the law who would condemn him to death. Then Jesus predicted that the elders would hand him over to the Gentiles, who would mock him, spit on him, flog him and kill him.

So what was this brilliant request that the sons of Zebedee had for Jesus?

They replied, “Let one of us sit at your right and the other at your left in your glory.”

You don’t know what you are asking,” Jesus said. “Can you drink the cup I drink or be baptized with the baptism I am baptized with?

“We can,” they answered.

vs 37-39

Apparently my friends James & John didn’t hear what Jesus said. Spit on? Flogging? Mocking? They must be living in some kind of denial or something. Who would have signed up for that?

Or maybe they just didn’t understand the gravity of what following Christ is.

There are real persecutions being done against people who accept Christ as their savior. Like REAL persecutions happening, and like RIGHT NOW.…in today’s time. I hear about people being imprisoned and persecuted in foreign lands, and I just can’t wrap my mind around that. I knew a priest one time many years ago, that had to escape from Vietnam because of his decision to Christianity. It took him 3 times to escape….the first two times they hung him upside down and flogged the bottoms of his feet so he wouldn’t be able to run. But he kept going, and finally made it to the U.S. where his reward was that he didn’t see his family for a couple of decades. Must have been worth it though, right?

In the U.S. we have it fairly easy and available to follow Christ. Sometimes though its not comfortable because of the ridicule or censorship we experience on social media or amongst the “crowd”. Family members sometimes reject our beliefs, possibly even the family members we give birth to or those who gave birth to us. Even those who are raised in a Christian home sometimes grow up to think their parents are off their rocker. Sadly, this includes those of us who celebrate the Sabbath and those of us who don’t have golden calves and set the example of living life following God. Sometimes the free will God offers doesn’t feel so great to those who get rejected.

When the ten heard about this, they became indignant with James and John. Jesus called them together and said, “You know that those who are regarded as rulers of the Gentiles lord it over them, and their high officials exercise authority over them. Not so with you. Instead whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant, and whoever wants to be first must be slave to all. For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many.

Mark 10:41-45

Dear Lord, it is so easy for me to get all wrapped up in my pride, thinking I deserve to be respected, appreciated, valued, looked up to, etc, for all that I do and have done for people. I act just as “entitled” as others forgetting that the only reason I am sitting here in this chair surrounded by these blessings of people, places and things is because YOU Lord, paid the ultimate sacrifice for my sinfulness. Long before I was even born, you paid full ransom for my soul. Often times, I feel rejected and unvalued for all that I have “done” and will do, but really, they are nothing. I’m sorry for my prideful demands of what “you can do for me“. I pray that you take this heart of stone within me and turn it to a heart of flesh in order for me to be the servant you need to draw people closer to you. Thank you for healing my heart and mind this morning and using the Word to draw me closer to You.

I pray for the person reading these words this morning, that they would be convicted of all that you have done for them. Help each person wrap their mind around the sacrifice you made for us.

What can I pray for you today?

Jesus does hear our prayers, and he wants to answer them. What requests do you have of Him today?

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I Will Trust

  • Leviticus 24:1-25:46
  • Mark 10:13-31
  • Psalm 44:9-26
  • Proverbs 10:20-21

Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God.

Mark 10:27

If I were you, I’d turn away from my blog post now. I’m completely unqualified to be writing to the general public about any of today’s scriptures. I feel that way alot, but this particular day, these particular readings, I’m at a loss. I honestly and fervently prayed this morning and asked God, “So what am I supposed to say to these people? Are you sure it’s me You want? I don’t even know what to talk about….what am I supposed to be saying to these people?

Lord, all these scriptures talk about trust!! Who am I to write to someone in a country that I’ve never been to or dire circumstances that I can’t even fathom, about these scriptures pointing to TRUST?” What right do I have to talk to someone with a shattered heart about TRUST, when I take for granted going to bed last night underneath the nice cozy comforter, next to my loving husband after spending a love filled weekend with him, my grandson and my daughter. What is it I’m supposed to say to the one who got a bad diagnosis or that recovery just doesn’t seem to come? Ya’ll, I got nothin’.

But God said…..talk to them about ME. I AM the Way, the Truth and the Light.

People were bringing little children to Jesus for him to place his hands on them, but the disciples rebuked them.

Mark 10:13

Now….why in the world would the disciples do that?!?! That makes no sense to me….in America….in 2021…but back then, children just honestly didn’t count. They were a burden and a liability until they could work the fields, then they were a commodity. But not to King Jesus.

Kind of like our small problems. You know the ones we are scared to talk about for fear of people judging us? The ones that seem so much smaller than the one that the girl in the cubicle next door has. The problems that may even be self inflicted….or the bad habits that we just can’t overcome. To the binge eater, closet smoker, mom who rages, dad who has one too many after work…yes, these kinds of “small problem”. To the boy or girl who is being approached inappropriately by someone in authority….yes, that kind of “small problem”. To the hard worker who got passed up for promotion…..AGAIN….yes, THAT kind of “small problem”.

When Jesus saw this, he was indignant. He said to them, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. Truly I tell you, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it.

Mark 10:14-15

I remember reading this verse YEARS ago, and it somewhat resonated with me, but didn’t really really wrap my mind around it. Then one day, my 3 year old Ashley and I had to go somewhere….I can’t remember where, I’m just sure it was a regular errand kind of day. I fed her breakfast, got her dressed, took her hand and said, “lets go”. I loaded her up in the car seat, got her safely buckled in, got in the car and started it up. But before I pulled the car out of the garage God made me aware of what this scripture was all about.

I looked in the rear view mirror at my sweet, trusting baby girl.

I just sat for a moment and listened to her sing a little song while she prepared for us to go.

It occured to me that she never asked where we were going. What we would do when we got there. Who all was going. She never double checked the seat belt, or questioned whether I put gas in the car. She didn’t ask to see my driver’s license or doubt that I was qualified to drive. She just ate my food, put on the clothes, took my hand, got in the car, looked out the window and sang her song and waited.

She trusted me. She TRUSTED that I knew what I was doing, and had a plan. She had been in this circumstance before, and it turned out well, and with love. So, she had no doubt that I would provide for her fulfillment and safety as I had done in the past.

The disciples were amazed at his words. But Jesus said again, “Children, how hard it is to enter the kingdom of God! It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of God.

Mark 10:24-25

A rich man had just asked Jesus about how to inherit eternal life….he wanted to be a follower of Jesus too. Jesus told him that he had to not only follow the 10 Commandments, but to sell everything and give it to the poor. He had to give away everyTHING that made him rich. His house. His cars. His servants. His money. His cell phone. Everything. WHAT?!?! My cell phone?? Wait. Everything, Jesus?

At this the man’s face fell. He went away sad, because he had great wealth.

Mark 10:22

Some of us have to choose to give up what we think is important and some of us lose it without any control of our own. Some have to walk away from family that won’t support our decision to follow Christ. Some of us lose loved ones who pass away before us, and all we have left is Christ. Some have to give up addictions and don’t know who or what we will be afterwards. Some of us end up having everything taken away because we have grown dependent on something other than God.

I lost friendships and relationships when I turned my life over to God because I wasn’t as fun at parties any more. I walked away from substances that clouded my brain function and hindered my health. Giving up cigarettes was one of the hardest things I had to do because it becomes a part of the personality, on top of being a coping mechanism. I remember wondering what I would do/be like after dinner or having a beer, or hanging out with so-n-so.

I chose to change my lifestyle because my body is God’s temple.

Follow my decrees and be careful to obey my laws, and you will live safely in the land. Then the land will yield its fruit, and you will eat your fill and live there in safety. You may ask, “What will we eat in the seventh year if we do not plant or harvest our crops? I will send you such a blessing in the sixth year that the land will yield enough for three years. While you plant during the eighth year, you will eat from the old crop and will continue to eat from it until the harvest of the ninth year comes in.

leviticus 25:18-22

HERE’S where I’m comfortable….in the asking…..in the concern. I’m the one asking “What will….? What if…..? What then…..?” God says to Trust. Y’all I’m so unqualified for this. So I’m not telling you what I would do….I’m telling you what GOD SAYS TO DO. Trust.

That seventh year must have been scary right? The year of not planting or harvesting? Just depending on what is already at hand? Trusting day by day that provision will come. Just taking the Hand of God and getting in the car.

Maybe not as scary as the sixth year leading up to it though…preparing for the non-harvest years? These are the years when its important to eat right and exercise for health of the aging years. These are the years to save for retirement. These are the years of paying off debt and having the emergency funds in place. These are the years to love on our babies because we never know what will happen in the future. These are the years to dig the well or feed the livestock in preparation for the year of drought.

But what a celebration the 8th and 9th year would be!! It’s in the 8th and 9th year that looking back and KNOWING that only by the grace of God did everything turn out all right. This is the time to lean in to in the future years knowing that God provided before and God will provide again.

All this came upon us, though we had not forgotten you; we had not been false to your covenant. Our hearts had not turned back; our feet had not strayed from your path. But you crushed us and made us a haunt for jackals; you covered us over with deep darkness.

Mark 44:17-19

Sometimes bad things happen to good people. Sometimes kids get abused. Sometimes husbands have heart attacks. Sometimes wives get cancer. Sometimes the bank calls the note. Sometimes the drought never ends. Sometimes a spouse finds another person they think they’d be happier with. Sometimes the economy tanks and we lose our job. Yep. Sometimes life just doesn’t make sense, and I’m not going to even try to pretend to know what some of my readers may be going through.

#unqualified

But I do KNOW that God is faithful and his promises are true. He will come to our aide. I promise this time of trial will end. Life will look different, but God will be with is in and through and on the other side.

Rise up and help us; rescue us because of your unfailing love.

psalm 44:26

I pray for trust. I know that you, Lord have seen us through some really devastating times and I trust that you will provide for us the next time. In the meantime, I ask that you prepare us and provide for us. Forgive me that I take Your provision for granted. I pray for the person reading this right now that they would find hope and trust in You no matter what life situation they find themselves in. I pray that You speak clearly and guide them closer to You through their circumstances.

Do you find yourself in a year of preparation, waiting or celebrating today?

What can I pray for you today?

How have you been called or forced to trust God in the past?

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Competition

  • Leviticus 22:17-23:44
  • Mark 9:30-10:12
  • Psalm 44:1-8
  • Proverbs 10:19

Sitting down, Jesus called the Twelve and said, “Anyone who wants to be first must be very last, and the servant of all.”

Mark 9:35

We sure have a competition issue in this world, don’t we? Everyone wants to be bigger, better, greater, stronger, prettier, more popular than the “other” person. This is a strange dilemma though, because I personally, don’t believe in participation trophies. It is my opinion that in every competition, there is a winner and a loser. You either get the job or you don’t. You either get first place, or you don’t. You either close the sale or you don’t. You either take that first step out the door in the morning, or you don’t.

A couple of weeks ago we were playing Candy Land with our 4 year old grandson. The first game we played, “Papa” won. Boyyyy did that make my grandson angry! He stomped off and cried. When he got done with his little fit, we explained to him that in every game, there’s a winner and a loser. I am forever grateful that the next game, my grandson won, (whew!!) and the illustration was complete, hat we just have to try again, and next time it may be our turn to win. We just gotta get back up and try again. (yes gotta is a word;)

They came to Capernaum. When he was in the house, he asked them, “What were you arguing about on the road?” But they kept quiet because on the way they had argued about who was the greatest.”

Mark 9:33-34

So, how do we make sense of my earthly brilliance in “there’s a winner and there’s a loser” and also make sense of “Anyone who wants to be first must be the very last, and the servant of all?

The disciples were arguing amongst themselves about who was Jesus’ best friend, who was being the most selfless and likely who had sacrificed more than the other, and who DESERVED to sit next to King Jesus. They didn’t understand the ultimate sacrifice that was about to come via Christ our Lord. And ya know what….Jesus DID know what they were arguing about already. He’d read the Pharisees and crowd pretty darn well so far, he was testing his buddies to see if they could be honest with him, and ultimately themselves. He was asking them to question themselves about what they actually “deserve” and if they were willing to work for it and stick with him.

So listen, lets talk about this competition thing. I don’t think that Jesus meant that we have to give in and give up in competitions. Paul in the Book of Corinthians says:

Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last, but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. Therefore I do not run like someone running aimlessly; I do not fight like a boxer beating the air. No, I strike a blow to my body and make it a slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize.

1 Corinthians 9:24-27

So really, its about disciplining ourselves to the training is where the competition is effective. Not against other people. To others we are to serve.

Serve like my cousin friend Mary served me today. She kindly commented on this post with the deep wisdom of a woman who knows the harsh realities and beauty that comes from competition. I walked away from this blog post earlier, unfinished thinking I would get back to it later. “No one is reading them anyway,” I said to myself. Mary’s words today are an example of ultimate servanthood. I’ve seen her give selfless support to her family in times of severe stress, and ask for nothing in return. She comments and brags on family on every social media post. People like Mary are #goals for those of us who obsessively compete against themselves, and sadly, at times, others.

Father God, thank you for keeping my competitive spirit in check. Thank you that you teach me to discipline and compete with servanthood. Lord, teach me what that means every single day, because like someone said, I’m just a “C+ student” in a world of A+ family and friend examples. I pray for the person reading this right now, that you would minister to them and help them stay encouraged, yet humble, strong, yet weak. Lord guide all of us to serve others through this life.

What goals and dreams are you striving toward?

How have you been ministered to recently?

How can you minister to another human today?

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I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!

  • Leviticus 20:22-22:16
  • Mark 9:1-29
  • Psalm 43:1-5
  • Proverbs 10:18

“If you can?” said Jesus. “Everything is possible for the one who believes.”

Immediately the boy’s father exclaimed, “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!”

Mark 9:23-22

Y’all, I must admit I don’t even know how to approach any of today’s readings. In Leviticus, we read the rules and regulations regarding priests cleanliness. I can’t even begin to relate to these laws, they make no sense to me. I’ve studied them and I know them. Mostly, I know that Jesus came to be the final sacrifice so we no longer have to bring lambs and birds and oxen over and over again. He paid the ultimate sacrifice. Thank you Lord!

In Mark, we learn about miracles of healing. The closest I can come is my experience with pregnancies.

Jeff and I have 2 daughters, as you may know or have read in my bio. But what I haven’t shared is that I have 4 babies in heaven. These babies were miscarried or died in utero at about 10 weeks. My body didn’t do pregnancy well. Two of the babies that died in utero, had to be surgically cleaned out. Someday I’ll write about the heart wrenching pain of miscarriage, but not today. Today, is the miracle of the two that God leant me to raise up.

I had already had 1 miscarriage when I got pregnant with Ashley, and my body just didn’t know what to do. Ashley is a miracle baby because my body threatened miscarriage with her SIX DIFFERENT TIMES. The doctor just kept putting me to bed for a week at a time, which my body and baby seemed to like because she hung out with me. By the time she got here, I was so grateful to hold her….WE MADE IT, baby! WE MADE IT! I held her skin to skin in that hospital bed and cried. We made it baby girl! If we can survive that, we can do anything! She’s my miracle baby.

By the time I got pregnant with Dakota I had three miscarriages. I was a emotional basket case!! *sigh, my poor husband, sigh* I had a diagnosed hormone imbalance and was in the high risk category under a doctors care. The doctors put me on hormones to try and balance my body out, and our circle group fervently prayed over us before & during pregnancy. When she was finally conceived, Jeff and I were elated! The first time I got morning sickness, I celebrated, because that meant my body was doing what it was supposed to be doing, keeping baby safe n’ sound! THENNNN the tests showed that she could possibly be down’s syndrome and all kinds of flags and warnings went up. I didn’t care, she would be a miracle either way. And she is.

These are proof enough that Jesus does really heal in the way that I want Him to sometimes, and my babies in heaven….well, I know that I’ll get to meet them someday. My heavenly babies, all have names. I named them as a way of releasing grief. That’s another story I’ll write some day….not today.

“You unbelieving generation,” Jesus replied, “how long shall I stay with you? How long shall I put up with you? Bring the boy to me.”

Mark 9:19

When I first read this verse, this morning, it felt like a scolding. But after journaling, I don’t think it is. In my prayerful imagination, Jesus and I are sitting on a rock by the water, criss-cross applesauce, like in preschool, and he’s looking at me in the eye, as I cry asking in a loving way as I lay my head on his shoulder. How long shall I stay with you, Theresa? Those words “put up with” can be translated “hold up” or “suffer”. So Jesus, for today, is asking me how long do you need held up? How long will you suffer with this unbelief? Remember THESE miracles!!

Many times my faith wanes, and I can sense that Jesus gets impatient with me. But not today, or at least not at this moment. Today I sit with the memories of the miracles in my life, still feeling the moment that I heard the heartbeat of my little girls and believe.

He replied, “This kind can come out only by prayer.”

Mark 9:29

Lord, thank you for the miracle of my family. You took two broken people and brought forth miracles of life through them. You Lord have held together this family, and for that I am forever grateful. Lord, I believe that you still perform miracles. And Lord, help me when I don’t believe, ok? Be patient with me, again. I pray for miracles in the life of the person reading this. I pray that you are patient with them and help them to see the only NECESSARY miracle and that is that you came and died for us, were raised again and seated at the right hand of the Father. Secure our hope in that.

Amen.

Are you needing prayer today?

What miracles have you seen?

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