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I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!

  • Leviticus 20:22-22:16
  • Mark 9:1-29
  • Psalm 43:1-5
  • Proverbs 10:18

“If you can?” said Jesus. “Everything is possible for the one who believes.”

Immediately the boy’s father exclaimed, “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!”

Mark 9:23-22

Y’all, I must admit I don’t even know how to approach any of today’s readings. In Leviticus, we read the rules and regulations regarding priests cleanliness. I can’t even begin to relate to these laws, they make no sense to me. I’ve studied them and I know them. Mostly, I know that Jesus came to be the final sacrifice so we no longer have to bring lambs and birds and oxen over and over again. He paid the ultimate sacrifice. Thank you Lord!

In Mark, we learn about miracles of healing. The closest I can come is my experience with pregnancies.

Jeff and I have 2 daughters, as you may know or have read in my bio. But what I haven’t shared is that I have 4 babies in heaven. These babies were miscarried or died in utero at about 10 weeks. My body didn’t do pregnancy well. Two of the babies that died in utero, had to be surgically cleaned out. Someday I’ll write about the heart wrenching pain of miscarriage, but not today. Today, is the miracle of the two that God leant me to raise up.

I had already had 1 miscarriage when I got pregnant with Ashley, and my body just didn’t know what to do. Ashley is a miracle baby because my body threatened miscarriage with her SIX DIFFERENT TIMES. The doctor just kept putting me to bed for a week at a time, which my body and baby seemed to like because she hung out with me. By the time she got here, I was so grateful to hold her….WE MADE IT, baby! WE MADE IT! I held her skin to skin in that hospital bed and cried. We made it baby girl! If we can survive that, we can do anything! She’s my miracle baby.

By the time I got pregnant with Dakota I had three miscarriages. I was a emotional basket case!! *sigh, my poor husband, sigh* I had a diagnosed hormone imbalance and was in the high risk category under a doctors care. The doctors put me on hormones to try and balance my body out, and our circle group fervently prayed over us before & during pregnancy. When she was finally conceived, Jeff and I were elated! The first time I got morning sickness, I celebrated, because that meant my body was doing what it was supposed to be doing, keeping baby safe n’ sound! THENNNN the tests showed that she could possibly be down’s syndrome and all kinds of flags and warnings went up. I didn’t care, she would be a miracle either way. And she is.

These are proof enough that Jesus does really heal in the way that I want Him to sometimes, and my babies in heaven….well, I know that I’ll get to meet them someday. My heavenly babies, all have names. I named them as a way of releasing grief. That’s another story I’ll write some day….not today.

“You unbelieving generation,” Jesus replied, “how long shall I stay with you? How long shall I put up with you? Bring the boy to me.”

Mark 9:19

When I first read this verse, this morning, it felt like a scolding. But after journaling, I don’t think it is. In my prayerful imagination, Jesus and I are sitting on a rock by the water, criss-cross applesauce, like in preschool, and he’s looking at me in the eye, as I cry asking in a loving way as I lay my head on his shoulder. How long shall I stay with you, Theresa? Those words “put up with” can be translated “hold up” or “suffer”. So Jesus, for today, is asking me how long do you need held up? How long will you suffer with this unbelief? Remember THESE miracles!!

Many times my faith wanes, and I can sense that Jesus gets impatient with me. But not today, or at least not at this moment. Today I sit with the memories of the miracles in my life, still feeling the moment that I heard the heartbeat of my little girls and believe.

He replied, “This kind can come out only by prayer.”

Mark 9:29

Lord, thank you for the miracle of my family. You took two broken people and brought forth miracles of life through them. You Lord have held together this family, and for that I am forever grateful. Lord, I believe that you still perform miracles. And Lord, help me when I don’t believe, ok? Be patient with me, again. I pray for miracles in the life of the person reading this. I pray that you are patient with them and help them to see the only NECESSARY miracle and that is that you came and died for us, were raised again and seated at the right hand of the Father. Secure our hope in that.

Amen.

Are you needing prayer today?

What miracles have you seen?

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What did Jesus come to do?

  • Leviticus 13:1-59
  • Mark 6:1-29
  • Psalm 39:1-13
  • Proverbs 10:10

As long as they have the disease they remain unclean. They must live alone; they must live outside the camp.

Leviticus 13:46

This was the prescription for defiling skin diseases. This was also the prescription for mental illnesses of all kinds. and other physical diseases. This was also the prescription for some levels of criminal behavior. These kinds of people were to be avoided and rejected by the community. God was present,visually and spiritually, in the tabernacle and in the camp where everyone else was at. So when a person got inflicted with a disease and got booted out of the camp, they were no longer in the presence of God.

No visitors.

Wear your mask.

Isolation.

Quarantine.

I don’t have children at home any more but I see the effects of children and families regarding covid restrictions. It’s insane what we are doing to people! If you don’t agree with me, I am sorry, but this is ridiculous! The scientific numbers aren’t supporting the isolation that is taking place. The effects of addiction and depression have substantially increased since this quarantine mess has started. Criminal behavior has elevated to unprecedented rates, and frankly I wonder if its not the effect of stress, isolation and the economy. I see my grandchildren not being allowed to go to school, just because they were on the bus with a kid who had been exposed. My daughter was quarantined away from family and friends because she “tested positive”. She had no symptoms. Grandparents are not being allowed to go to sporting events of their grandchildren because of covid regulations. Seniors in nursing homes are even MORE isolated from their families than they were before, all in the name of coronavirus.

I do know people who’ve had covid, and some have gotten really, really sick. I know of 1 person who died. My heart goes out to families and friends who have lost loved ones because of this horrible disease. Also to the ones who have lost friends and family members to heart disease, cancer, pneumonia, sclerosis of the liver, diabetes, the flu. Its heart wrenching to lose someone we love. When someone is sick with any illness, they should stay home, rest, and respect others enough to not go around them.

I wonder though, if we are not killing more people with isolation than we are with covid. What are we doing people? We are killing our society and our economy with this desolation!!

I feel like we are back in the days of Leviticus with this isolation thing. Enough is enough! It is time to get on with life.

5He could not do any miracles there, except lay his hands on a few sick people and heal them. 6He was amazed at their lack of faith.

Mark 6:5-6

Sometimes I wonder if God isn’t trying to get our attention? We all know the high risk groups, right? Those with heart conditions, diabetes, lung disease, cancer and other pre existing illnesses. Also, it seems those who are overweight, who smoke, who drink alcohol excessively, don’t exercise or try to stay healthy are more at risk to getting sicker.

But then, I hear of people who are panicked and afraid to go outside for fear of catching covid but are excessively overweight. Other’s who are afraid to go inside the grocery store, except of course to get their cigarettes. During the shut down last spring, the government stopped allowing church services, but it was ok for liquor stores to be open, because after all we don’t want people to go in to withdrawals. We don’t allow community gatherings of more than 10 people, but riots in large cities are ok.

We have to return to God, friends.

if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and forgive their sin and will heal their land.

2 Chronicles 7:-14

Jesus is the real deal y’all! He CAN and WILL and WANTS TO heal our land. But we as a world MUST:

  • call on His name,
  • humble ourselves
  • pray
  • seek his face
  • repent AKA and turn from our wicked ways

Repenting seems like a crazy super Jesus freak word….but all it means is to turn away from, or change our minds. So if I’m heading down the road to a place and realize that I’ve gone the wrong direction, I can turn away from that direction and go towards the right direction. I repent. Its really just that simple. There’s no judgement there….just a changing of direction.

But now, Lord, what do I look for? My hope is in you.

Hear my prayer, Lord, listen to my cry for help; do not be deaf to my weeping, I dwell with you as a foreigner, a stranger, as all my ancestors were.

psalm 39: 7 & 12

The Psalms teach us how to call upon God, they’re big and sometimes hard to understand, but there are verses in each one that are just a prayer…friends, I pray this for our world. I pray that God would hear my prayer, my cry for help. I turn on the news or read it on my phone and feel like a foreigner or a stranger in this land called America. There is so much violence and hatred. I don’t even go on social media anymore because its full of vitriol and anger. Its like people are spitting at each other.

Ashley said recently, “Mom, I wish we could just all go back to posting pictures and memes”.

Right?!?!

Now it all seems like everyone is playing a political theater game or something.

Whoever winks maliciously causes grief, and a chattering fool comes to ruin.

Proverbs 10:10

Jesus was in his own home town hanging out with the kids he went to carpenter school with played on the football team with. His buddies. In todays world he may have been in his own Facebook group or his own Twitter feed when he said:

“A prophet is not without honor except in his own town, among his relatives and in his own home.”

Mark 6:4

This change in the world, has got to start with one person. Then, like a drop of water in the still pond, it will spread. Turning away from this fear and hatred to the One who can do miracles will seem scary at first. People will doubt you, and they will wonder what got in to you. I even had one person years ago say, “Yea, your mom told me that you got religion.” When I heard that, it felt like being stabbed in the heart. My own mom. A friend. But friends, when Jesus came in to my life, it was worth it. I was able to leave behind some really bad choices and a terribly unhealthy lifestyle. Its not easy being the only one in your family or friend group who believes in this Jesus, but God will send people your way. I promise.

Lord, I am sorry for our lack of faith. I am sorry that you can not do any miracles here because of our sin and doubt. I repent in behalf of our world and nation. I pray that you lay hands on a few sick people and heal them, because they are out there. Lord, heal our land. Heal our world. I thank you that all things are possible for those who believe in you and call upon your name. I pray specifically for the person reading this today, that you would work on their heart, heal their body, mind and spirit and use all these things to draw them and me, closer to you.

How has coronavirus affected you? Can I pray for you today?

What does it mean to you for God to heal our land?

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Just believe

  • Leviticus 11:1-12:8
  • Mark 5:21-43
  • Psalm 38:1-22
  • Proverbs 10:8-9

22Then one of the synagogue leaders, named Jarius, came, and when he saw Jesus, he fell at his feet. 23He pleaded earnestly with him, “My little daughter is dying. Please come and put your hands on her so that she will be healed and live. 24So Jesus went with him.

Mark 5:22-24

Jarius was a synagogue leader, which from my understanding, is a layman whose responsibilities were administrative. There was usually only one synagogue leader so they would be responsible for looking after the building, the administrative work and supervising the worship. This leader had an important role at the synagogue. Jesus had been causing quite an uproar amongst the people and church leadership, so Jarius had heard what Jesus was teaching and doing. Jarius would have likely heard quite a bit of scuffle about this miracle worker.

And Jarius’ daughter was dying. Church leader or not, his daughter was dying, and I can’t even imagine the desperation that brings on. Jarius had come to the end of all he could do, there was no hope left. She was dying.

Then in Verse 25…

25And a woman was there who had been subject to bleeding for twelve years. 26She had suffered a great deal under the care of many doctors and had spent all she had, yet instead of getting better she grew worse.

Mark 5:25-26

She had her menstrual period for 12 years. Uhhhhh….ladies, can you imagine? Ugh. Praise God, I’m past that time in life, but oh my goodness, do I remember the inconvenience of that! This could have been a post childbirth issue that never quite healed up, or she could have been like many women I know, that their menstrual cycles just don’t ever regulate. For us today, it’s quite an inconvenience and you can bet your sweet britches that I’d be seeing every doctor I could find to get this fixed!!

But in Jesus times….it was more than a complication. Post childbirth regulations and menstrual purification regulations were quite a sentance. In today’s Old Testament readings we see a portion of this:

“A woman who becomes pregnant and gives birth to a son will be ceremonially unclean for seven days, just as she is unclean during her monthly period…..If she gives birth to a daughter, for two weeks the woman will be unclean, as during her period. Then she must wait sixty-six days to be purified from her bleeding.

When the days of her purification for a son or daughter are over, she is to bring to the priest at the entrance to the tent….

In this way the priest will make atonement for her.

Leviticus 12:1-8

There’s a whole chapter in today’s readings dedicated to the uncleanliness of a woman after childbirth. When any animal is unclean or any human is considered unclean they were to be exiled from their community.

So for this poor woman, it had been twelve years of uncleanliness and isolation.

Twelve years in quarantine.

Twelve years of shut-downs.

When she heard about Jesus, she came up behind him in the crowd and touched his cloak, because she thought, “If I just touch his clothes, I will be healed.”

Mark 5:27-28

Can you hear it? Can you hear her tears? If I can just touch his clothes. If I can just get close. If he will just look at me. If SOMEONE will just look at me. If someone will just HELP ME! I can’t take this anymore!

The synagogue leader and the outcast woman had one thing in common.

Desperation.

They were both at the end of their options.

They were both at the end of their rope.

All they had left was faith in this Jesus fellow that everyone was talking about. What else was left, ya know? It’s worth a shot, right?

While Jesus was still speaking, some people came from the house of Jairus the synagogue leader. “Your daughter is dead,” they said. Why bother the teacher anymore?

Mark 5:35

Can you say PEER PRESSURE!! It was his people that were pressuring Jarius to doubt. Notice that its Jarius FRIENDS bringing on the confusion to what Jarius believed to be true. And you know what….it was WHILE JESUS WAS STILL SPEAKING! These doubters couldn’t wait to cloud the testimony!

Overhearing what they said, Jesus told him, “Don’t be afraid; just believe.”

Mark 5:36

Lord, I thank you that you overhear the haters in my life that want to cause me to doubt. I thank you that you can be heard above the noise, if I just listen. For any reader that may be at the end of their hope today, I pray that you speak to their heart. I pray with you that each of us “Don’t be afraid.” I pray for the faith of the woman and the belief of the leader, give me that kind of hope. Give my readers that kind of hope. We need to hear you above the noise.

Have you lost hope friend? What needs healed in you today?

Do you really believe? Can you really trust in this Jesus?

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Very Early in the Morning

  • Leviticus 1:1-3:17
  • Mark 1:29-2:12
  • Psalm 35:17-28
  • Proverbs 9:13-18

Very early in the morning, while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house and went off to a solitary place, where he prayed.

Mark 1:35

It is my belief that Mark wrote this verse to show each of us that if Jesus needed alone time, so do I. So do you, my friend. But its hard to find that time isn’t it? Between the chaos of raising kids, work and other activities we may be involved in, taking a time out, SEEMS selfish.

OH but wait, This is starting of to sound like a 2019 journal! That’s right……we’re in 2021 and just survived 2020. You may have had quite a bit of alone time over the past 12 months….in the form of shut-downs and or quarantine. Maybe more than you thought you needed or wanted. How are you doing? Someone who followed me the other day, is in the middle of a shut-down….my guess is that this is day 4? How are you holding up?

Either decade, this post is for you, my friend, because we’re going to talk about Jesus! Jesus had to go off to pray to gather himself together, lets meet with him here, while it is still dark. Jesus had been in Capernaum with his friends at the home of Simon and Andrew. Simon’s mother-in-law was sick, they told Jesus about it, and Jesus healed her. Well, word spread and…..

32That evening after sunset the people brought to Jesus all the sick and demon possessed. 33The whole town gathered at the door 34and Jesus healed many who had various diseases.

Mark 1:32-34

It must have been quite a party right? Jesus became very popular, very fast. He had cast out demons and cured diseases. That’s what we want right? The miracle? The answer? The fix to our problem? I know I do.

I have had family members who fought addiction. Two members of my family have struggled with drugs and gambling but now seem to be in remission. My mom was an alcoholic and smoked cigarettes her whole life until she died an early death due to a massive stroke that came after many small warning strokes. I “32brought to Jesus all the sick and demon possessed“. So, why were two healed and one wasn’t? It just doesn’t seem fair. Being present when “34Jesus healed (my) many who had various diseases” was like a miracle! A miracle that I thought would never come! The gratitude and joy that I still feel to this day, is overwhelming!

So you can imagine the celebration going as the “33whole town gathered at the door,” The miracle maker was here! Aunt Lucy is cured! Cousin Susie is her old self again! Uncle John came home! The crowds gathered because they wanted more and more healings and miracles! Simon and Andrew, James and John were now local heroes for bringing Jesus to town. These outcast fisherman had finally made something of themselves by bringing in Jesus!

But then, Jesus snuck away, in the early morning. Our local heroes became panicked and went looking for Jesus saying, “Everyone is looking for you!” Where are you?

Jesus replied, “Let us go somewhere else – to the nearby villages – so I can preach there also. That is why I have come.

Mark 1:38

Jesus (and his friends also) had become extraordinarily popular in Capernaum, but he wasn’t interested in popularity. He came to proclaim the Kingdom of God to all of Israel. He came to preach and teach first, the miracles come as a result of the teaching. Think about it like this, God placed a God shaped hole in each of us, and the only thing that will make us whole is God in the form of Jesus. When we turn our lives over to him, seek his face through his word on a daily basis, he WILL fill that spot and miracles will happen. Until we do that, we will keep seeking to fill it with food, drugs, alcohol, sex, gambling, work, exercise, relationships with people…something to make us feel complete. I promise you, from the experience of my own addictions, the only thing that will fill that spot is God. That’s it.

A man with leprosy came to him and begged him on his knees, “if you are willing, you can make me clean.”

Jesus was indignant. He reached out his hand and touched the man. “I am willing,” he said. “Be clean!

Mark 1:40-41

Dear Lord, I come to you today to thank you for healing me of my own afflictions which separate me from those I love. I pray that you continue to fill that God shaped hole in my heart every day with you, so that I can be loved and love others like only you can. I pray for those struggling with illness and demons that are separating them from you and their community. Help all of us to know that we can come to you , JUST AS WE ARE, and that you will reach out your hand and touch us. Teach me Lord, preach to me, Lord, show me the way. In Jesus name. Amen.

Do you have a special place that you go to pray every day? Share with me where that place is.

Are you filling the God shaped hole in your heart with something other than God?

Are you afraid of going to God in “your current situation”? Trust him today, he already sees and wants you to come to him just as you are.

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