- Leviticus 7:28-9:6
- Mark 3:31-4:25
- Psalm 37: 12-29
- Proverbs 10:4-5
Every since I came to accept Jesus as my Lord and Savior back in about 1995, I have felt a deep longing to know him more. In the beginning, I took classes at church followed by intense spiritual direction for about 5 years. During that time I began working for our church as an administration assistant, and developed friendships with pastors and learned the mechanics of church ministry. I have always studied the Word, from the very beginning. Then when I was introduced to the Bible in a Year through SOAP Journaling, I was hooked. I’ve been studying this way for about 10 years. I spend 1-2 hours every day, and longer if I can, reading, listening and journaling. I sense that most Christians aren’t like that. In fact, I think we who study the Word are a rare breed.
And really, that’s ok, there’s no prescribed time for reading and journaling. We are all put together differently, each with his or her own gifts. As for me, I have always felt a calling to go deeper in my relationship with God through His word. When I was on the Women’s Retreat Team, it grew even more when I was allowed to speak in public and could see the difference that God’s word made to the women. I am so grateful that God has called me to this role.
And yet, I judge a lot of people, including my daughters think I’m weird. They think I’m a Jesus Freak, and really I am. Have you ever seen one of those people that stand on the street yelling, “The Kingdom is near! Repent!” That’s NOT me. I am NOT a protestor you’d find in front of an abortion clinic. I am NOT leading revivals out on the beach, I can’t even get to those, or I would go to one for sure!!
But I will tell you what I am like…
You know those posts of peoples on Facebook, where they ask the general public for prayers? Well, most people put up the little praying hands, or say “prayers going up” or just say, “I’ll be praying for you.” Not me, I actually type out a prayer for the situation and for the person who’s asking for prayer. If I see you in the grocery store, and you tell me that your husband lost his job, I’m likely to ask you if we can pray, and stop my grocery cart and pray with you, if you’ll allow me to. If you come to my office and tell me that you’ve been diagnosed with cancer, and you’re scared. I will stop what I’m doing and ask if we can pray together, I am likely to lay hands on you and pray for healing. Covid or no covid. If you come to my desk, you’ll likely hear praise and worship coming from the computer speakers behind the billing software on my desk.
That’s me. I’m not in your face about what I believe in, shoving it down your throat, but God has called me to be a light, and I’m not going to hide it.
It hasn’t been until the last couple of years that I’ve heard the call to write and that’s because I judge that God has spoken to me long enough that He wants me to speak to others about Him. In the beginning I was recovering from years of abuse, both other-inflicted and self-inflicted. I was in no condition to be talking to people about the Lord, because I didn’t know him well enough. I don’t know how to say this more emphatically other than to just say it.
God sent his only son, Jesus, to be born of a virgin, to live among us as a man, be horrifically crucified, die and rose again. He is CURRENTLY sitting at the right hand of the Father, interceding in our behalf so that we can spend eternity with him. He did ALL THIS before you were born, before you sinned, before you made ALLLLL those mistakes in judgement. Yes, EVEN THAT SIN. Yes, sisters and brothers. EVEN THAT one.
When you believe this, and put your trust in him, he will not only forgive you, but set you on the right path to fix whatever it is that is messed up in your life as a result. I PROMISE this is true.
We’ve been having some horrific weather in this part of the country. One day I woke up and it was -22 f. One day the windchill factor was -27 f. During times of inclimate weather, cows tend to get stressed out and have their babies during the bad weather. For instance, one year we had a mama cow birth her calf in the creek bed. I know many cattle men & women around here that lost calves this past weekend. Some farmers ended up bottle feeding or putting babies under heat lamps in hopes of saving them. Calves just don’t fare well going from a 125 degree mama to -26 degree snow and ice environment. Jeff and I prayed and prayed, I literally stood out in our cow lot praying for God to hold off the babies until after the snow storm and if they did come, to please perform a miracle and have them go to the barn that Jeff and I cleared out for them. I was believing in the promise that God has plans to prosper us, not to bring us harm. But always, not my will, but thy will be done.
Well it happened, miracle of miracles, yesterday a mama cow had her baby in the northwest corner of the barn. They NEVER do that, friends! That mama and her calf were waiting for us in the barn yesterday afternoon when we got off work. I almost cried. God really does hear our prayers, friends! It may not ALWAYS seem that way, but sometimes, like in this instance, it is very apparent.
I wrote yesterday that it was difficult to write the journal entry. I just wasn’t feeling very delightful. It was a sheer effort just get the writing done. Then I had to go to the grocery store yesterday, in the cold and snow. I had gotten into an argument with my daughters a few days ago because sometimes it just feels like they take me for granted, so I’ve been feeling very entitled and prideful. But I worked hard through yesterday’s “Take delight in the Lord” study. I prayed and thought through what it meant for YESTERDAY to be soft, dainty, delicate and pliable. Some days, like yesterday, all that means is NOT crawling back in bed and pulling the covers over my head. Sometimes it just means being obedient in the tasks ahead.
This is my lamp. This blog and, I pray, the book I intend to write. People are going to think I’m weird, and I don’t care. Well, wait, that’s not true. I DO care. I want everyone to have a relationship with the Lord, like I do! I want everyone to get saved! I want a community of believers like we find in the book of Acts
So, I can’t say I don’t CARE if this is my vision. But you know, I would be naive if I didn’t admit there are alot of mockers out there that are going to ridicule me, and some of those are in my own family. But so be it. This is my only prayer for my writings today:
Lord, you promise in Psalm 37:29, “The righteous will inherit the land and dwell in it forever.” I thank you for your promises and I know that I am only righteous when I put my faith and hope in You. Guard my heart and give me the courage to put the light you have put on my heart, on a stand for all to see. Give me strength to endure when my feelings get hurt by what others say, guide mto on the path toward learning how to put what is hidden in my heart in print. Guide those you intend to see it, to my writings. I know you have plans to prosper me and give me a hope and a future. If it be through cattle, through gardening, through writing, I receive your blessing.
Have you ever experienced rejection for your beliefs?
Where have you learned about God and his love for you?
What does it mean to you to know that God sent his only son to die for your sins. What does it mean to you to put your faith in Jesus Christ?