- Leviticus 6:1-7:27
- Mark 3:7-30
- Psalm 37:1-11
- Proverbs 10:3-4
I’m finding this journal entry very difficult to write today and yet this verse penetrates my heart. When we moved to Southeast Kansas in 2013 to be close to our family, I felt God give me this verse to carry and use to become more intimate with him. Like this verse was written about my life, FOR my life. Like a slogan of sorts.
So to dig a little deeper, I looked up Psalm 37:4 on http://www.BibleHub.com to understand its original meaning. To be honest, I’m not FEELING very delighted today…its cold and snowy and icy. The weather has pretty much been awful for several days, and I’m feeling cooped up and isolated. The hot water is frozen in our kitchen. This morning the hot water heater wouldn’t stay lit long enough for me to take a hot shower. There are things I need to do like go to the grocery store and gym, and its too cold and miserable. My husband is stressed out because the livestock are needing a lot of attention, so we are bickering. Its just not a very fun time.
“Delight yourself” is translated in to Hebrew as “Anog“, meaning to be soft, dainty, delicate. A verb would be “to be pliable”. Notice that it says TO BE soft, dainty, delicate, pliable. That’s an ACTION verb.
The past 12 months have been really hard on many, many people. Shut downs, quarantines, severe illness, deaths from covid, job loss. Its been horrible for many people around the world. Here in Piqua, we’ve been guarded from much of that, and for that I’m grateful. So really, a little hot water issue shouldn’t be that difficult to be pliable in. So how do I ANOG at times when life doesn’t FEEL very delightful? It all comes down to obedience. I have to BE soft and pliable in the hard times as well as the good times, trusting that He will give….
“And he will give” is translated to “Nathan“, meaning to give, put, set, fasten, plant .
On days when we are out at our pond in the summer, enjoying a good day of fishing or when I am sharing a meal with my family of bounty that was 100% produced from by my own garden or livestock, I know that He fastened that joy on my heart. There is nothing more enjoyable that sitting on the back porch watching our cow-calf pairs graze. Only God could PLANT that level of joy in my heart.
I ANOG and God PLANTED….
“The desires” is translated to be “Mishalah” meaning “request, petition“.
I don’t remember actually verbally requesting this way of life. But if I go back in my journals I will find entries requesting that God somehow find a way for us to move to Kansas to be closer to family. I remember asking God to mold me and make me into the Theresa that he always wanted me to be. I would have NEVER dreamed this would be my life. I couldn’t imagine the joy of planting a seed and then 3 months later eating a tomato from the vine it grew. No one could have ever explained what it would be like to sit in our home knowing that we BUILT it with our own hands. These dreams and life that God has given me are so much more than I ever imagined possible.
So at times like this….when life isn’t so easy, I ask myself and I DOING GOOD? Am I DOING the work that God has asked me to do? I think of years past when we desperately wanted to move to Southeast Kansas, but felt we couldn’t. If we wouldn’t have done the work that God set before us at that time, we wouldn’t have had the means to move here when we finally did. I want a long healthy life to enjoy many years to come with my family, but am I eating right and exercising in order to stay healthy, like I know God has instructed me to do? I want a strong marriage but am I cultivating love and faithfulness with my husband, or am I just griping at him when the hot water doesn’t work?
Lord, I confess that sometimes I question your ways. It doesn’t always feel like delight, but more like obedience. Help me to not fret or be envious. Teach me to commit my way to you and trust you so that you will make my righteous reward shine like the dawn. Show me how to be still before you and wait patiently for you. I am trusting that the meek will inherit the land and enjoy peace and prosperity. Right here in Piqua, Kansas.
Have you ever taken a leap of faith?
Is your delight in the Lord panning out like you thought it would?