Exodus 23:14-25:40; Matthew 24:29-51; Psalm 30:1-12; Proverbs 7:24-27
I spend countless hours wondering if I am or will be ready. Do you? I wonder if I’m doing the right thing….saying the right thing….evolving the right way. A pastor at our old church back in Houston said one time that if we pray, and research, then act on decisions, we can trust that God is guiding us. Trust is a key word here. Do I trust myself to do the right thing?
Let’s take this blog for example, I have been thinking about writing a book or blog or Bible study for a couple of years. The reason I want to do it, is that I believe God is very present to me when I pray fervently, and I have been very blessed because of that. Sometimes I have these contemplative prayer experiences where I feel like I become enveloped with the Spirit and during those times, I feel God’s presence and receive insight. But then I doubt myself. Does this ever happen to you? Have you ever really FELT the presence of God? Have you ever had visions or experiences?
So, I want to write this book/blog or whatever to reach out and touch other people who may be struggling or searching. I spent YEARS struggling and searching. I don’t really have any detail about that right off the top of my head, except the years before I knew Christ as my savior, and the years I spent wandering. Those stories will come out in the blog/book at some point. But that’s not what this post is about. My WHY actually was told to me the other day during one of my contemplative prayer experiences….
As I said yesterday, I had been angry with church leadership because they weren’t “doing what I thought they needed to be doing to help me.” I can get very self righteous at times, and I repent for those times. Then during the prayer experience it was revealed to me that my church leaders were sent to seek out the lost, the outcast, the addicted and that those people wouldn’t come to an announced event. The the lost sheep had to be found, like Jesus exampled for us. The outcast and broken wouldn’t feel like they’re welcome inside the “wedding feast” unless personally invited or spoken to by God. Those people come in to my life and your life, suddenly and without warning. They’ll just wander in to your life, unexpected.
“So you also must be ready…..”
During this visit of the Spirit, I wrote in my journal the questions
So when I met with my pastors (my husband was with me), it kind of came out that I have it in my heart to write, a book, or blog or something. Jared is a writer. He’s writing a book, and he said that at times when he gets off track, struggles with anxiety, anger, sin, is usually when he’s not doing what he KNOWS God has told him to do. So I wondered if that’s why I’ve been struggling lately?
But is this it? Is writing a Blog it?
I have the idea of just sharing my SOAP journals on here every day instead of in the spiral notebook. So right now I’m just writing….because I want to be ready. I want to reach readers that may be struggling. If you’re reading this, I want to reach you. I want to commune with you. I want to share with you. I want you to share with me. I want us to commune together. That sounds so corny, but its real.
In Exodus the leaders go up to the mountain to see the God of Israel. And see they did!
Moses and Aaron, Nadab and Abihu, and the seventy elders of Israel went up and saw the God of Israel. Under his feet was something like a pavement made of lapis lazuli, as bright blue as the sky. But God did not raise his hand against these leaders of the Israelites; they saw God, and they ate and drank.Ex 24: 9-11
Moses and Joshua went on up the mountain and “Then Moses entered the cloud as he went on up the mountain. And he stayed on the mountain forty days and forty nights.” Ex 24:18. What we know later in Chapter 32 is that EVEN THOUGH Aaron and the leaders SAW GOD they helped the restless Israelites make the golden calf. Now that seems crazy. Why in the world after experiencing such clarity in eating and drinking with God would they wander off? How could they possibly get sidetracked after that?
Well, isn’t that what happens to me? I THINK I know what God is telling me to do….but then somehow I lose sight of God’s vision for me.
God’s desire is for ME to be ready, not to get YOU ready. God desire is for YOU to get ready not to get anyone else ready. Sure we all have tasks we are supposed to be doing during the waiting time. The Israelites were supposed to be making the ark for the covenant tablets, the tabernacle, the table, all of which were for God. So they gathered the gold and supplies……but then made a calf instead because it was what was FAMILIAR from the good ol’ Egypt days. Something comfortable, they could relate to.
I don’t want comfortable or familiar. Jesus says He came to make all things new. I’m ready for a new thing!
Has God called you to something new?
Have you gotten lost or off track on your journey?
Mt 24: 30 says, “And then all the peoples of the earth will mourn when they see the Son of Man coming on the clouds of heaven with power and great glory.” If Jesus were to come RIGHT NOW, what would you mourn because of? Are you ready? Is there a family member that I can join you in prayer for?
What tasks are you doing or supposed to be doing while you are waiting?
Did one of the other scriptures touch you today? Please share in the comments.